Im not flaming or judging. I just diddnt think it was something Id ever do. And when i did yesterday I was shocked. I know its easy to say dont look if youre not prepared for whats there. I trusted him and never checked his phone but I knew the password for his email address and something just came over me. I dont know whats wrong with me. They went back 3/4 years before we met and I was horrified looking through them.
Asking girls to send him naked pictures and telling them how horny he is and how much he wants them to full on telling women hes in love with them and long love letters. There were 5 or 6 women going back the 4 years but also emails to friends from his student days bragging about how he had had his friends sister one night and someone else the next day ect.
Im just stunned. Its not the man I know and love and now im struggling to believe a word that comes out of his mouth. I cant tell him I looked at his emails. I think he loves me and I dont think he would cheat but am I overreacting or am I trusting the wrong man?
I know everyone has a past but some of the things he was saying to girls to get them into bed was laughable. Hes just not like that now. I dont get it. Is this it for us?