to be utterly ashamed.

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I have been off fb for a long time. I didn't find it 'good' for me.

I was small before I had my beautiful daughter. A perfect size ten. I worked hard at keeping my body in shape. When I got pregnant I got serious case of the fuckits.

a few nights ago i spotted photos on dp Facebook of myself from nights out with friends over the past year. I look awful. I was so shocked I went to bed sobbing. My dc is a fully fledged toddler and i have been ignorant of my out of shape. . unhealthy. .unfit size 14-16 ..mostly 16 size.

I am disappointed in myself.

I get married in less than ten weeks and distraught that my once size ten figure will be wearing a size 18 (big boobs!) wedding dress. With such little . time there is no rectifying this.

I am so utterly ashamed. I hate how I look and sone reflection upon being faced with how bad this is has made me realise this is affecting alotm my confidence. . my life in general. I don't want tobe this for my ddaughter. She needs a role model.

aibu to feel this upset and pathetic. Worse things happen at sea..

I would strongly advocate an exercise programme to feel better about your body. You can easily do a "couch to 5k" programme in ten weeks and I find running one of the best ways to body confidence.
Target a "parkrun" 5k a couple of weeks before your wedding and work towards it - I guarantee you'll feel good about yourself when you achieve it :)

You should not feel ashamed.
However, if you want a practical tip to really shed the inches and make a massive difference to your shape in 10 weeks, have a go at the 30 day shred. a DVD that only takes 25mins ish and you don't even have to leave the house-ideal with little ones.
You will find a 30 day shred thread on the exercise area of mumsnet. A friendly bunch all trying to get fitter together!