I'm being a bitch aren't I?

[Babybunny88]

AIBU to feel a bit jealous of DP? He has a heart condition and can't put any strain on it for obvious reasons so of course doesn't work. He looks after DD every day, gets to play with her and see her laugh and grow, cook for her take her to the park, while I go off to work 45 hours a week in a crappy paid job where I receive crappy respect from colleagues and feel so crappy about it that I can't sleep properly at night from stress.

Of course I am extremely lucky to be healthy and mean no disrespect to DP and others who can't work, but sometimes I feel angry that I can't be at home with my DD enjoying life because I am busy getting stripped of my self respect and worth as a human at my work so we don't end up homeless.

I'm a horrible bitch aren't I? :(

How sad to think at 24 this is all you'll ever be sad
Nope it wont always be like this. So far you are working hard holding down a job gaining skills and experience albeit in an area you have identified as something you don't want to do for ever. You wont do this for ever and your baby wont always be this young and dependant.

What do you enjoy? What are you good at? What are you passionate about? Start with that see where it takes you.
xx

You are not a bitch at all. You are not jealous of your DP's illness, you are a bit jealous of him being able to spend so much time with your DD.

That is perfectly reasonable and normal. I would hope to find a job at a different nursery ideally.

You sound like a lovely person BTW.