It's my best friends birthday on Friday and she's invited me out for a meal. I really, really don't want to go.
There's been a lot which has happened with us in the past month. She has been having an affair for a year with a married man and is now pregnant with his child. Said man and wife (who we also know) are currently having IVF because she can't conceive.
Meanwhile - she's still really good friends with said man's aunty and regularly meet up for coffee. No-one knows that this baby is his apart from me and I wish I didn't.
So I can see what will happen on Friday - all the guests will coo at the fact she is expecting...I'll be sitting there seething because I know the truth whilst she laps up the attention and pretends nothing is wrong.
I can't look at her in the face, I don't want to see her and I don't wanna know.
We met up last Saturday and it was like I was listening to a strange talk. I feel so sad that she could do something this destructive, I looked up to her she was my little best friend :(
So, IABU to make my excuses and not attend on Friday?