I have suffered with PND after the birth of each of my children, and now am suffering delayed onset PND after the birth of my third child. DH hasn't been sympathetic during any bouts of PND and is even less sympathetic and supportive this time.
I have seen my GP, am on medication, and am awaiting a referral to see a consultant, and I really am trying to and want to feel better, but I am struggling big time. Every task feels like a massive task to me right now, I can't think or make decisions with any clarity and I just can't be the organised person that I normally am. I am also feeling very oversensitive and get upset very easily, although having said that my sister has behaved appallingly to me recently so I feel very justified in being upset about that.
To cut a long story short, my DH just gets annoyed with me for being depressed. I am trying so hard to get things done in the house but it feels like an uphill struggle. Even loading the dishwasher feels like a massive task. I do do things each day but sometimes I am overwhelmed and I just cry. The kids take up all my energy, and that's fine but I can't cope with much else.
He has spent the whole weekend being in a bad mood with me as I am not as on top of the house as I normally am and he's had to pitch in to help. This is going to sound silly but one thing that I am struggling with is grocery shopping; I just can't think clearly, can't make any decisions, and can't do things like meal planning because of this. But he won't do the food shopping or even an online shop so that I don't have to think about it at the moment. He wont' even give any suggestions as to what to have for dinner each night. He got cross with me yesterday afternoon as I hadn't done much in the house over the weekend; I do try though and I did do a few tasks yesterday, but it takes me a long time.
He has also said that if I don't get better soon and start keeping on top of the housework he will leave. Believe me, I do want to get better, I hate feeling this way and I am trying as hard as I can, but I feel this kind of pressure has the total opposite effect to what he thinks it will have. I haven't even got the energy to argue back when he has a go at me. He moaned at me at the weekend because I've not done much Xmas shopping, but this all goes back to me having lack of clarity and not making decisions.
I feel like I'm trying as hard as I can possibly try, and when I need a bit of nurturing and looking after he doesn't want to know.