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To want to know all your secrets...

161 replies

Lurve · 13/02/2011 20:50

I just came across an intersting site called Postsecret, where people put their secrets on the internet.

So how about posting up a secret that only you know. Lets see if any Mumsnetters have something really juicy or interesting. Obviously namechange if people know you.

Sits in a big comfy chair and gets popcorn and waits

OP posts:
blackwitch · 15/02/2011 13:02

I used to practice magick and once led a banishing ceremony against my ex husband.

BorgQueen · 15/02/2011 13:03

I've name changed because I'm a coward and still ashamed and mortified.
DD was arrested at 14 for shoplifting twice Sad , the only people who know are me and DH, I think it's my fault though because I used to do it all the time as a teenager, although I never got caught.
She was also stupid enough to do it in Boots, where a neighbour works and I'm convinced she knows because of the filthy looks I get from her, even 5+ years later.

happiernow · 15/02/2011 13:03

I never got over my parents divorce
I was sexually abused by my mothers brother
I spent my teens being an alcoholic
I slept with my aunts boyfriend
I spent years having an affair with a close friends dp
I have been raped twice by two diff men in the space of two weeks
Exp tortured me physically/sexually and emotionally
I slept around when i was young thinking that it would make men like me
I have done drugs
Ive been on anti depresants
I have had in the past suicidal thoughts.
I have an illness that will kill me.

Nicer ones:
I genrally cant spell that well!
I hide chocolate from my dp!
I hide the fact i eat so many crisps!
I have a slight crush on my bestfriend
Im not bothered that my brother left his dp and kids for someone else
I have an obsession with harry potter and all things related.
I get scared if i have to talk on the phone to someone i dont know.

ImFab · 15/02/2011 14:05

VinegarTits - the Hmm is a bit unkind.

JJ17 - Shock[words fail me].

BitOfFun - no, I am not daft Sad.

VinegarTits · 15/02/2011 14:34

you say you have always known what age you were going to die? errr how?

not unkind, sceptical.

ImFab · 15/02/2011 16:09

Just a feeling I have had for a very long time. No need for you to be sceptical as it doesn't actually affect anyone but me and my family and yes, I am well aware of the fact I might be wrong.

MaybeTomorrow · 15/02/2011 16:19

When I was five, I stole a packet of cheese & onion crisps off of the top of the lockers at school. The owner saw me eating them and reported me to the teacher. I denied it, they didn't believe me and took me to the headmistress who called my Mum. I had to speak to Mum and swore that I hadn't eaten them (even though Mum and I both knew that we had no crisps at home so they couldn't have been mine... Blush).

To this day I deny to my Mum that I stole them (I'm now 36) - but I did! Blush

bristolcities · 15/02/2011 16:20

I'm going to the old bailey next month because i was raped by a famous person.

No one noes, not even my close family and im terrified they only find out because it appears in a newspaper.

MaybeTomorrow · 15/02/2011 16:21

happiernow Sad

With you on Harry Potter!

happiernow · 15/02/2011 18:08

MaybeTomorrow

I cant help it! I just love it! My dp thinks im so sad!

Changedjustforthis · 15/02/2011 19:18

My brother (5 years older) sexually assaulted me when I was 9. I have never told anyone in my family as I had the feeling that mum either not believe me or not do anything about it. My brother thinks I can't remember that far back and looks worried whenever I talk about things that happened around then (my dad was having an affair and took us on a guilt holiday to portugal instead of to a caravan site in Scotland). I did consider reminding him of it when his dd turned 9, but chickened out. Thanks to him I didn't have sex till I was 23 and I hate, hate, hate blowjobs. The thing that annoysme the most is that we always fought but on this holiday he was really nice to me, wanted us to pull our beds together because we were 'friends' and then assaulted me. And the next day he told some boys he had become friends with what had happened and they all looked at me like I was dirty, but they stayed friends with him for the rest of the holiday. Fucked me up royally that did. Feel tight throated in anger even now.

SleepyCaz · 15/02/2011 19:31

WHERE CAN I POST FOR ADVICE ON MY FUCKING EATING?

I think writing this last night, has made something worse or something. Today I have had nothing but black coffee, and a Slim A Soup. I feel awful.

bristolcities · 15/02/2011 19:38

Really i don't think posting is the way to solve this.

GP might be a better way.

You may be described antidepressants or given a list of books to read. In my opinion the help isn't great but better than posting on an Internet forum.

chageditforthis · 15/02/2011 19:48

Hi SleepyCaz, sorry this was triggering for you :(

I agree with Bristol, but if you just want anonymous support the website We Bite Back is really good. I totally recommend. It is far better than Something Fishy, the opther main recovery website, as I found that was enabling me to wallow in my ED somewhat whereas WBB members will always challenge that kind of thing.

Lovesdogsandcats · 15/02/2011 20:27

Changedjustforthis Sad

paperview · 15/02/2011 20:29

SC - I don't know if you have already been there but there is someone else in MH who taking the steps to recovery.

You weren't the only one triggered by this thread.

IAmATerribleWife · 15/02/2011 20:44

I fancy someone else and I like to think given the opportunity I wouldn't have an affair but I probably would. I feel guilty all the time and contemplate ending my marriage a lot.

ermnewname · 15/02/2011 21:17

ahem....

I am not sure if I may have been assaulted as a child - I have a vague 'memory' which I am not sure if it was some kind of dream or what, but I was really young so don't think I will ever know for sure

jonicomelately · 15/02/2011 21:27

bristolcities. I hope you get through your trial OK Smile

63BabyWipes · 15/02/2011 21:34

I too occasionally think I might have been sexually assaulted as a child by my cousin. Vague memories of being very scared and running out of their flat.

I was bulimic for 12 years - every single day my ultimate goal was to stuff myself and then throw up 1-5 times a day. I flushed so much money down the toilet this way. I thank my lucky stars I survived without any major damage to my health and have a healthy baby. I am well and truly recovered now.

SleepyCaz, my first step was GP, then outpatient therapy for about a year + antidepressants. PM me if you'd like to know more, glad to share...

I was prosecuted for shoplifting in another country, my parents have no idea and never will! I was young and silly then Blush

In private I pick my nose all the time. Disgusting I know Blush

I used to stalk my first boyfried (he had no idea though! Blush

bristolcities · 15/02/2011 21:35

Thank you joni, actually the worst part is constantly having his very public, ever growing success constantly rubbed in my face. I just want to shout from the roof tops that he is actually a total toss pot. But im to ashamed and totally terrified of sympathy that I cant tell any one in the real world.

BoffinMum · 15/02/2011 21:47

Bristol, the bigger they are, the harder they fall. He'll get his comeuppance.

BoffinMum · 15/02/2011 21:48

Also their tosspot nature is always know by the people who matter.

bristolcities · 15/02/2011 21:56

I do hope so, i suppose sometimes you've got to give it a helping hand.

Hes a misogynist any intelligent person would recognise this just by his lyrics, but not me apparently.

I think im probably just a terrible judge of character.

Alambil · 15/02/2011 22:15

I still have nightmares about the abuse I suffered eight/nine years ago.

I started cbt but the therapist never called back to rearrange an appointment he cancelled. I never chased it.