I called Alcoholics Anonymous

[winewine]

I just called the helpline and spoke to a lovely man.
He said he will get someone to call me to support me and get me to a meeting.
The thought of a drink is turning my stomach. I'm so sick of it.
My life is out of control.

Well done 😊

Just a little update.
AA never got back to me which is disappointing and I haven't made it to a meeting.
But I have not had a drink since NYE.
The withdrawals are subsiding and my sleep is improving.
I'm feeling a bit better and trying to stay positive.
I don't want to be the person I was just before Xmas.

Wow!!!! What an amazing progress!!! OP, take it day by day, step by step, one foot in front of the other!

@readingismycardio
Thank you.

Just wanted to say I think you are amazing for doing this. My family have a long history of alcohol abuse and I know how hard it is. You are doing brilliantly! How about rewarding yourself with a new haircut or a massage? Something just for you. It will get easier I promise.

Yes do this 😊 well done OP

I have been saving the money from drinking I a savings pot so it's good to see the savings.

😊👏👍

@winewine amazing update. A massive well done it is really tough to do and you are doing it 💪. Just keep on going hour by hour. It will fall into place. I still highly recommend listening to quit lit or podcasts on audible.
Keep.us updated on your progress I am rooting for you.

Thank you everyone.
I can't believe how much better I'm feeling.
I don't shake anymore and although tired my head isn't foggy.
The best bit is waking up and not having that feeling of dread from not remembering the night before.
One of the best supports I've found is the stopdrinking sub Reddit and the Alcoholics Anonymous sub Reddit.
Whatever your situation someone has been through the exact thing.

I felt like I was the only person who drank who was beyond saving.

The support here has also kept me going.

I know it's early days and I'm sure they'll be difficult times coming.
At least I know I can get through it if I really want to.

@Willywanker1
Well done.
People like you inspire me to keep going.

You absolutely aren’t the only person in your boat but you are doing incredibly! Make sure you treat yourself 😃

Keep going, one day at a time. You’re taking your power back 💪🏻

Hi @winewine how are you doing? Reading your thread is really inspiring- what you're doing takes a lot of courage and willpower.

I'm still here.
Not drinking.
The withdrawals have settled. The sleeping is not great still but my head is clearer.
I've had a few moments where I've thought I'd love a glass of wine
I've kept myself distracted online window shopping for house improvements from the money I'm saving.

You are doing so well. Keep going x

Amazing, well done! Would it help to reflect on what you’ve learned so far and the benefits you are feeling? Sometimes writing it down makes it seem more tangible.

Just checking in to let you know I'm thinking of you and that you are doing really really well x

@winewine what home improvements are you window shopping for?

That's a fantastic achievement @winewine ☺️

I've failed.
Sitting here with the last glass out of a bottle of wine.
Don't think I can do it :(

This is just a blip. You know that you can manage days without drink because you have just done it. I know it must be so hard but you are worth it. You are of immense value as a person and with support you can do this.

@EducatingArti
Thank you.
Just finding it so hard.
I know I've had more alcohol free days this year than drinking but as soon as the stress kicks in I want a drink.
I will start again tomorrow x

Saw your thread when you first started. You should read it again from the start and see how far you've come already!
January is a tough month for many.
What's the stress that tipped you over the edge this time, and can you prepare yourself to deal with it / let that emotion out in another way next time?

Yes, start again tomorrow. It will be easier to stop this time as you have had all those alcohol free days and withdrawal won't be as hard.
Could you have something else to do ( eat chocolate, watch a good video, phone a friend ?) When you are particularly tempted?

I think what tipped me over was realising I'm not good enough.