Morning all, I hope you are all having a good day 😊
I'm feeling sad and tired of being me. I've had a chronic neurological involuntary movement disorder called tardive dyskinesia that was caused by some prescribed off label antipsychotic, and it's kind of like Tourette's and Parkinson's disease combined (I've already posted about this earlier in this thread).
I'm OK with it in some ways after nearly 9 (long!) years with it so far, but it's the other weird symptoms I get throughout the month that I'm pretty certain are tied into my hormonal fluctuations, including when mu oestrogen drops loads. I had a head injury and post concussion syndrome before my movement disorder and have never felt quite the same cognitively since, especially when I seem to have ongoing "brain fog", a horrible feeling of empty headedness, and a kind of chronic inability to be able to do much more than geveral day to day pottering around the house, looking after my 3 children.
I'm pretty sure my post concussion syndrome is the cause, along with my being a SAHM for about 6 years now. If I go back to work in a few months time, it will probably help me make my brain work a bit harder, but I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't petrified of dementia. I know that the risk of dementia isn't necessarily any higher after a TBI, but quire honestly, most days I feel so foggy that it's almost like having a bit of mild cognitive impairment.
I hate getting older and being a woman with a brain that doesn't work. 🥺
Rant over for today...😜🤣