I think sometimes a good cry is cathartic @martha79 it sounds like the visitor was lovely in one way but a bit much in others. Maybe think how you could make it a little easier next time?
You may already do something similar so feel free to ignore this idea but might help someone. One of the things the CFS clinic suggested that I found helpful when first diagnosed when first diagnosed was instead of resting for say 2 hours in the afternoon when exhausted. Try and split that into 4 30 mins of rest. Total rest, so maybe meditation music but no other noise or stimulus. The key is to try and build these rests into your daily routine and timing them before the exhaustion kicks in. Sort of like topping up your battery!
Had my face to face appointment today with a GP over this ongoing pain since the stroke. I had a rough night and was struggling just to get there so I sobbed pretty much as soon as I got through the door. A bit embarrassing but she was absolutely lovely and very understanding. I decided I liked her when she actually used the words ‘you're only 58, you don’t expect this, it’s totally shit and unfair’ I think that pretty much summed up todays mood.
So another juggle of medication to try a muscle relaxant to see if that helps this pain. She’s referring back to stroke clinic to see if they need to scan again and maybe a therapist re the anxiety of it all happening again that likes to kick it at 4 am.
Slept this afternoon which isn’t surprising in the least after all that.