Hello all. Sorry I've been missing in action or I should say inaction with MEcfs I guess.
I've read recent posts but struggling to remember who said what now. Brain is being uncooperative. I'm just overwhelmed at the moment. Been so much going on and so much is really identifying so I'm hesitating to lay it out too much anyway...Epic boring udpate incoming.....brace yourself.....
Basically a couple of deaths is one thing that's happened in the last week...nobody close but on my doorstep kind of, so it's raked a lot up about losing my Dad suddenly and it's making me think about when Mum goes which is maudlin but it will happen of course. The other person who has died has taken their own life. It's tragic. She had illnesses similar to MEcfs but mental health issues too and it's just a big shock and horrible. Makes you sad for what we all go through with chronic illness.
Then exh has been an absolutely unbearable disrespectful pain in the ass with some other stuff from his family on top (bang out of order). Ive got a lot of feelings swishing around from the mental abuse he put me through. He's really pushed a few buttons and it's raked things up there too. I'm feeling resentful which isn't good. And..second weekend alone in a row with DS not here. I've barely seen him this week which I need to get used to because he's getting older.
Work has been full on.
Car needs a service and haven't sorted it.
Loo seat triumph is now not so trumphant because it's loose already. WTF. Maybe I didn't have the strength to tighten it enough.
There's more but I have dumped on my counsellor at least. Went back after finishing for a few months. I felt a bit better for talking about it yesterday but it hasn't lasted.
Today I feel awful and lonely and I've been in pain loads which makes me a bit emotional.
Tldr is me just feeling sorry for myself! Sorry. It's very self indulgent. Been alone too much.
I'm sorry things have been tough for you too @Oioiqueen and I think @Dozymoo42 had a wobble?
@Bluebellsandwishingwells I want to know more about your book please? Well done.
How are the creative endeavours elsewhere? Any ceramics going on?
@Swanhilde have you been naughty? Been causing a stir on AIBU and got banned? 😉 I do hope not.
Did someone say something about nothing happening so they haven't posted? You know that was actually the point of this. ... 😘 We can chat about nothing much going on if it isn't. My little world doesn't belong on the other long running thread of people doing gigs and weekends away and DIY etc etc. I am missing it though. Watching others live their lives. Anyway, we can be boring and yet we're not boring. You're all brilliant. X
Anyway, I am going to go eat stuff and maybe even have a drink and charge my phone and maybe I'll call my bestie later. .. though now I've said that I feel like maybe a nap would be better. 🙈
I need to stop typing.... Sorry 😐 🧠🤦🏻