I just need to get this out somewhere, been going to the gym for a bit, trying to sort my life out past few months noticed a guy working there, very pleasant on the eye, a lot younger than me, obviously in good shape not in a over done way, in proportion lovely sizeable
arms….nice. Anyway thought nothing more of it then i felt he kept looking in my direction, to the point it kind of annoyed me as it made me feel a little self conscious, I’m a size 14-16 with some quite wobbly places when I try to run 🤣🙈 so there’s no way he could
of been looking at me in a fanciable way. As time went on I started looking, then really noticed his arms and it’s made me go a little weak at the knees. I got used to the idea that he may actually fancy me a little
bit and I felt more confident, this will sound hilarious to most I’m sure but one time he came quite close to me when I was on a machine and honestly I felt like electricity like some kind of vibe or feeling something weird that I’ve not felt before just by being very close proximity to him….one day he’s looking then I turn around in the gym and see behind me other girls who are in epic condition, really
fit (fair play) and got their tummies out in these crop tops (again no jealousy got it flaunt it) and there’s me in a baggy t shirt working my wobbly but off sweating and just gross 🤣 reality hit HARD 🤦♀️ I felt like a classic fool a right tool…please do have a laugh at this part 🤣
so I told myself get a grip there’s no way this little hottie is going to look twice at you.
as I’ve been going more he actually is looking over at me, I’ve clocked him a few times, I’ve clocked him in the glass reflection looking….so now I’ve got a bit of a crush which is really annoying in one way as now I’m super self conscious and almost nervous going to the gym and want to look as good as I can without being obvious, I’m like a school
girl, I’m embarrassed at myself but at the same time I’m enjoying it, my life is rather dull and this is the most exciting thing for me currently-how pathetic am I. I guess this is either a crush or limerance 🤷♀️
just to clarify I have no intention of acting on this. I am married kids etc this is just fantasy and It’s probably all in my head to a certain point, but when I catch him looking I really do go weak inside. Left this morning and I couldn’t help but look at him then looked to the floor as I did he was looking at me, I so badly wanted to talk to him have a flirt even but I never will. Not even sure why I’m sharing I just need to share this somewhere with someone to get it out!