I've name-changed for this because it's so outing to anyone with more than a passing knowledge of my life.
For me, life's best isn't usually in a single moment, but tonight I felt it sat alone in bed. DH is at work. His love and support has been ever present for over thirty years
Firstly, I'll say I have a life limiting condition, not usually conducive to feeings of joy, yet laid there, I felt a wave of contentment.
I don't want to appear smug, but without some probably overly long explanation I can't convey how and why this moment meant so much to me.
My greatest wish when diagnosed was to see DC to adulthood and happy. DD (our youngest DC) arrived home from university yesterday. She has settled in beautifully to her integrated Masters and the city she has moved to. We also received a letter today saying she is to receive the chemistry prize at a presentation evening next week from sixth form.
DS2 called earlier from a weekend away in Europe with his girlfriend. The phone was on open. I could hear them both laughing and united as they recounted their day. It was all so very normal, DS is our miracle, the child we were told to go away and discuss what level of disability we were prepared to live with. He was born healthy.
Finally, tomorrow I'll spend the day with DC1 and his baby daughter. DIL (I feel blessed to have a lovely relationship with both DS's partners) will not be with us because we're Christmas shopping.
GD was born after several years of loss and fertility treatment. It was awful seeing DIL and DS go through such heartbreak. To be able to see the fulfillment of their greatest wish and to hold GD in my arms is again something I never dared believe I'd live to see.
I know things can change in a heartbeat, but right now I couldn't wish for more.