Can I ask some advice ? Background Crohns for 25 double digit surgeries and stoma bag , stage 4 kidney disease , stroke (small with only some residual physical and cognitive impact thankfully) and last autumn needed a full open surgery hysterectomy for a large ovarian tumour that was borderline - subsequently had bad wound infection and had to deal with open wounds for a couple of months.
I work from home and went back about February and had a couple of months where I felt reasonably well. April I had flu or Covid and I’ve never fully recovered , have been working mainly laying down due to low blood pressure and exhaustion - last week the problems with super low blood pressure came to a head and I fainted a couple of times so have had to stop work for a while as I’m feeling so unwell.
Recently I can’t barely take a few steps without pressure in my chest making me want to vomit and can’t stand still to make a sandwich etc as I’m so weak. Doc is being very slow to refer me to get POTS etc checked and I’m struggling to see a way through this and back to reasonable health.
I have a crossroads really , I can use up my remaining half pay sick leave and try for ill health retirement from civil service or redundancy , retire now at 53 and cover outgoings from savings til I can get work pensions (not massive) at 55 or try to keep on working at the expense of everything else it seems. What would / did you do ? I was so focussed on getting to 55 and then retiring early but I am thinking this may be impossible.
Sorry for the long post , I was told many many years ago that I should come to terms with being unable to work and I have been so determined to prove them wrong but I have no life now apart from work and sleep