So my experience with my DC has left me with CPTSD. Therfore I am prone to hypervigilance and catastrophising, which means dealing with major negative life events gives me extreme anxiety even though they are "normal".
In the last 5 years my DM, my DP, my DF, my MIL and an Uncle have all died, the last three since April. All illnesses, no suspicious circumstances. I was present at the first 3, saw my MIL two days prior.
I have also been ostracised by my SM of 40 years whose MH has meant she has levelled serious accusations of theft and abuse at my DF and myself. She currently lives alone, and we are NC. My frustration at the way she has treated myself and my DF has been sometimes expressed unkindly, although I accept that she "can't help it" (allegedly).
So hypothetically if she was murdered or died in unexplained circumstances, and I was interviewed, following perhaps interviews with people she has spoken to but don't know me, and who have believed her delusions, the police, going by Lucy Letbys case, might consider me a good suspect. My DNA is in her house probably, as she has gifts I've given her etc and I used to visit.
I live alone so I wouldn't necessarily have an alibi. Phone tracking? I could have left it at home. My search history would show an interest in the occult and true crime.
I have a history of being accused of harming my DC. I have had episodes of binge drinking and confrontation publicly witnessed, while under extreme stress. (Not ideal, and not proud, obviously).
My point in bringing up this hypothetical scenario, is that on paper, on the balance of probabilities, a skillful prosecutor could probably convince a jury they had me bang to rights.
My protestations of innocence could be painted as manipulative. Friends testifying to my character could have fallen victim to my "charm". If I used big words or was sarcastic or angry in the witness box, that's all potential ammunition. Indeed, during my DCs case, all of those things came up as red flags in reports.
It could be argued that cumulative stress drove me to it, or that the other deaths around me should be looked at again - after all, my DM and DP might have been dying of cancer, but it doesn't mean I didn't help them along.
And imagine, in a bizarre twist of fate, this scenario came to pass (honestly it would be rubber room time for me if it did) and the prosecution found this post.
Would it be premeditation or a confession as presented to a jury? Or evidence of a sick mind proving a point?
Now some readers will be rolling their eyes, scoffing or accusing me of hyperbole. Some will understand exactly what I'm getting at. And that the justice system, as a PP mentioned, isn't always about justice at all.