Firstly, I'm getting through this, but I'm all alone and I don't want to burden him with my fears and there's no one I can speak to right now to support me.
We are digital nomads. When everything is working well, it's a fantastic sense of freedom and I love my life. But when things go wrong, it's enormous pressure.
Last night I drove him to the hospital, after a few days of being unwell, the pain was getting worse. When I suggested it, he said okay, then I knew it was definitely time to go. We got back to our accomodation at 4am.
We just arrived in a new country 2 days ago. Neither of us speak the language. It's not close to either English or Spanish, the two languages we do speak.
I'm navigating a foreign country, new city, no language skills, scared for my husband who is sleeping a lot and quite unwell, all while still having to run my online business.
Tomorrow I have to drive us to our next city where thankfully we have a 2 month say organised. It's a 3 hour drive. I can do this. I have to unload the car in the centre of the new city into a new apartment, with a sick husband. I can do this, I know I can, but it's still a lot.
The business relies upon me mostly. I'm the primary content creator. I trained two other employees but neither of them can yet do my job. So I have about 2 hours work to do tomorrow before we can leave, or after we arrive. Luckily my business can be flexible.
I guess, all I want here please is some hand holding because I'm so alone right now. I have so much on my shoulders, which normally is fine when I have my husband by my side to support me, but when he's sick I'm so alone.