I hate my baby

[whatisthislife55]

I’ve name changed for this because I’m not proud of how I feel.

My 10 week old baby will only contact nap with movement (walking, rocking etc) and in a sling. The moment I stop moving he wakes up. He fights sleep for every nap until he gives in. At night he does one or two stretches in the bassinet (thank god) and then he’s up from 5am. He also hates his car seat and screams. Once I’ve fed him and changed his nappy I can put him down for 20-30 minutes until the cycle starts again. My husband works long hours so is of limited help.

Honestly I am miserable. I love my son but I hate my baby if that makes any sense. I honestly feel like I’ve made a massive mistake and wish I’d never had a baby. Ironically we had multiple miscarriages and years of fertility issues to get to here and I should feel so happy.

I’ve spoken to the health visitor and the GP and they’ve put me on group therapy but it doesn’t seem to be making any difference so far.

Has anyone had a baby like this or felt like this? I just don’t know what to do anymore.

When I had my LO about 4-5 of my friends all had babies around the same time and I can hand on heart say we all said to each other that at some point, we all said “why did I have a baby” or “I’ve made a mistake”.
What you’re feeling is completely normal, it’s still shit but absolutely normal!
The only thing I can say is for the first probably 6-7 months you have to just give into the chaos and power through. I know it’s probably not a very PC bit of advice to give, but there’s nothing you can do to change how a baby acts, so you have to just power through.
Things got better for me about 7-8 months in and my LO could sit up and nose around, we also gently sleep trained at 8 months away from contact naps.

Not for babies with silent reflux - like my second. He not tolerate being on his back if he wasn’t also latched.