Mark Rylance was one of my teachers in drama school. He’s an absolute sweetheart. He taught that no matter what role one plays as an actor, there always needs to be that spark of joy, of playfulness … and he has it in spades. It’s been many years since I was in his company, but if he hasn’t changed -
back then he was playful, sensitive, kind and so lovely.
having been an actor, and remembering my hardest times I can say : don’t think an entire person is horrible if they snap at you while they’re working.
one of my most horrible jobs ever was one of my biggest roles - and I was basically physically abused. Constant tearing off pieces of my costume that had to be stuck to my skin, then adhering it back on (they were armbands), then tearing it off… for hours. They didn’t care that they were ripping off my skin and I was bleeding. They covered the bleeding bits with makeup.
actors become commodities, and it’s so soul-destroying.
it’s normal to be expected to do enormously taxing emotional scenes over and over … the crew wasting time joking and laughing did get a bit of a growl from me, I have to admit: I asked them to be quiet.
or when I had to run through and then give a fucking speech, I remember growling at people to stay out of the way or I would knock them down. I was pissed off and done- and I was also in an abusive relationship at the time, and starving myself.
so this is just to say: yes, there’s no excuse for being an asshole, but it happens. It happens when we’re in pain, hungry, exhausted, and deeply stressed.
also: I met Johnny Depp and he’s such a kind sweet person.
the late John Barton. Beautiful soul.
the Fiennes brothers - both so sweet and kind, very private.
David Bowie: was some kind of otherworldly angel, I swear.
the people I’ve met who have behaved like awful brats were influencers or the occasional old actor becoming irrelevant.
the influencers who were awful seemed like desperate people, maybe a bit too used to the awful things people can say on the internet …
Steve Martin: lovely, and actually hilarious just as a person :)
but the truth also is, I have some stories of awful behavior I don’t want to write here - I feel like people might have grown up since then, 20 years ago (or more)