Do i have baby number 4

[mazie2024]

I'm torn between having another baby. I have 3 kids. I'm 43. My kids are 21, 14and 4.
I'm financially ok. Own my own house etc. I know it's going to cause a huge rift in my family (my father and brother). My father struggles mentally and tells my brother I'm borrowing money. When in fact dad looses it (I do t know what he does with it tbh). I don't honestly care what my brother thinks. But I don't want to take the only family from my kids if they have a strop.
I have the next 3 years working from home. So seems perfect timing to have my final.baby.
I've never had a smooth pregnancy
Id love to experience this once (my mum died in my last. I was in an abuse relationship for the older kids).
Id love to be able to enjoy a pregnancy and birthing experience.
Am I being insane wanting to do this and knowing the risks of loosing my father and.brother in our lives. Am I being really selfish to my the kids I have

You’d be absolutely fucking mental. I think you need to address the other things in your life which are probably lacking.

Maybe look at the bigger picture here OP

What is your OH's opinion on a 4th, or are you talking about a sperm donor?

There is a huge uptick in risk of your baby being born with a disability when you're aged over 40

It's all well and good wanting a smooth pregnancy, but what if it isn't smooth?

And fuck your family - if they don't have involvement in your DC's lives, they're just a red herring

And what if baby no 4 is babies no 4 and 5?

Some facts here:

https://www.tommys.org/pregnancy-information/im-pregnant/ask-a-midwife/what-happens-if-im-pregnant-over-age-40