Living with misophonia. Anyone who has misophonia want to chat? My son is a gobbler and I want to do terrible things!!!

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My son is in the room with me and he's eating.

Gobble gobble chomp chomp grunt ahhhh grunt chomp gobble gobble sigh.

How loaded is your fucking fork if you're grunting like you're deadlifting a horse?

I feel a murderous rage and at the same time i want to cry.

I hate eating with people and avoid it as much as possible because not only do I fantasise about plucking people's eyes out with my fork and beating them to death with it but I'm so paranoid about my own eating noises that I can't force food down and need to take tiny bites and drink water to force each bite down.

My sister is blind and came to stay. We had to eat together so i sat at the other side of the room and I had to have her play an audio book while I had a towel that I shoved in front of my mouth while I chewed in an attempt to muffle any noise I might make.

I know it's a condition people joke about and don't take seriously but it's utterly miserable to have to cope with this.

I want to yell at my son which is unreasonable and unfair so I won't but the pent up rage feels like a physical pain in my chest.

I'd love to talk with fellow sufferers about this godawful thing.

Misery loves company, I suppose.

Edit - my late dad had it too. I remember him yelling at me that my dinner was already dead so I didn't need to growl at it. That is when I started to become paranoid about making any noise when eating.

Actually, here's another one and I'd be REALLY interested in thoughts. It bugs the hell out of me the tick tick tick of tapping a screen on an iPhone [not changed settings]). Is it controlling to say -

Pick one of these things and entirely your choice:
Don't do it
If you do it, I'll leave the room
Change your settings and tap away
Don't come to my house if you won't stop

I don't know whether it's because my Mum does so very many of the things that trigger me that annoy me and it's more noticeable, or because I get more annoyed because it's my Mum, or even if some things trigger me BECAUSE it's my Mum.

I might sound harsh but it really really winds me up as just one example.

Sniffing though as an example I've posted previously I'll offer a stranger a tissue to get them to stop

She won’t just see you smoking, she will also smell it on you when you come in. The smell is really strong. I find it a very overpowering smell, to the point I will avoid people who have recently smoked.

You are minimising your mums reactions and she is minimising yours. Sounds like you are winding each other up a bit at the moment so many some space to calm the relationship down is needed.

I think in the first instance I'd bring it up as saying it was bothering me, and then would say options 2 and 3 from your list above (IE either I can leave the room when it's bothering me, or I can help you change your settings) and see how that goes?

Just thinking with DH and his chewing, we've been together a decade now and he's the one who puts the radio on more often than not before I've asked, and also if he has certain foods he just eats them elsewhere. But it took a lot of me saying 'im just going to step out whilst you enjoy your food' to get to this point. I've always said it's me with the issue so I'd rather change my behaviour to combat it (IE I want him to enjoy his meal rather than being conscious of chewing so I'd rather leave), but if he is happy to change his behaviour (IE happy to chew quietly so we can eat together) then that'd wonderful, but it's not an expectation from me. Has been a compromise which works for us.