Anyone still suffering lockdown fallout?

[EmmaEmerald]

I don’t want to tag any of the original people who helped me out a lot as I know this thread will attract a lot of nasty folk

but every so often I feel absolutely in shock still at how the fallout goes on.

suppose I’m seeking reassurance it won’t be like this forever but it might be, I guess.

It's pandemic fallout isn't it, not lockdown fallout

There was a massive global pandemic. Just as with any other global event there will be consequences for years to come.

the MN crowd told me chirpily that it was an "opportunity for her to learn some resilience"

Same

My daughter had a mental health breakdown in the first lock down. She developed agoraphobia (couldn’t leave her bedroom without a panic attack, let alone the house), OCD traits, an eating disorder, self harmed and attempted suicide.

I don’t think I’ll ever forget watching my then 14 year old daughter fall apart and the utter terror and helplessness I felt because I couldn’t do anything to help her, or access her any help due to lockdown

We’ve spent the last 4 years trying to put her back together, and she’s getting there slowly, but the scars on her arms and legs are a stark reminder of it all and I feel like I’ve been left with some kind of trauma tbh.

The pandemic had a huge effect on me, our eldest and MIL.

But for the teenagers sake we have to acknowledge it happened and build resistance to move forward. So they have saved us in many ways.

Our medic friends (and medic non friends) it was horrendous. We mere mortals just try to support as best we can.

I hope everyone can find their reasons to move forward. But if you are struggling right now you are not alone in that.

There’s definitely a sense of life before and life after lockdown.

I was surprised at the amount of people that turned so militant and suddenly supported all rules and restrictions that governments put in place. On the other side were complete conspiracy nuts who were convinced it was all part of a global plan to control people. There didn’t seem to be any middle ground, if you disagreed with one thing then you were immediately put in the other camp. I guess this is mainly due to the increase in social media usage, where any form of nuance is lost.

Personally I saw a really selfish side to some people. They had to have it worse than anyone else because they were struggling. It’s all a bit strange still when I think about it. It almost doesn’t seem real now.

I’m sorry you’re still struggling OP. I think talking can help if you’re able to access therapy. But you’re definitely not alone in the way you feel.

My mum died because of lockdown. I'll never forgive those who inflicted it on us. The young and old were treated appallingly.

I suspect most of us are to some extent.

I'm not aware of your previous threads OP but please accept a big hug from me for how you're feeling now.

For me lockdown was fine but it stopped my darling DF going out at all. Isolated, he lost mobility, sickened, and died last May. I'll never stop suffering from the fallout of not having him around any more 🙁

Well we all went through a Global Pandemic that hadn't happened for over 100 years!!

Of course we are all affected to a greater or lesser degree! This event was outside our living memory and hopefully won't recurr for at least another 100 years.

Millions died. Millions have had their health permanently impaired. Economies around the world are fucked and will be for many years to come.

It was a staggering event. I often think people just don't comprehend the vastness or seriousness of it.

This.

It is COVID we are in fallout from. Not lockdown per se.

No, for a lot of people it was lockdown that caused the damage, not covid.

It was the lockdowns that caused me and my then 4/5 year old DD to develop mental health problems, which when I posted about them on here I was told were my fault. I was never remotely anxious about covid itself. Luckily DD and I are broadly fine now, but it was fucking awful at the time and I can’t think about it without getting upset.

No, for a lot of people it was lockdown that caused the damage, not covid.

Lockdowns were to prevent the infection of vulnerable people because of Covid.

They were a reasoned and rational response.

I was never remotely anxious about covid itself.

Well that's nice for you but it killed many thousands and would have killed more without the lockdowns.

I'm a completely different person with a completely different lifestyle than I was this time in 2019 solely as a result of the pandemic and lockdowns. For me it's all good, but the sheer extent of the difference means I can fully understand how it must be when the changes have been bad. It was without doubt the strangest period of my life, and I have no personal sense of feeling of it being like it never happened. It was profound and life changing.

I'm still coming to terms with having a permanent disability as a result of Covid related hospital delays. I was supposed to have surgery in early 2020 but it was cancelled, and when I finally had surgery my condition had worsened so much I've now lost use of my left hand. As a result I lost my job as I couldn't do it one handed and they wouldn't support me moving into a different role I could do. I struggled to find anything else I could do one handed so now I work in an area that doesn't utilise any of my skills.

No, for a lot of people it was lockdown that caused the damage, not covid.

Absolutely. There’s a lot of gaslighting going on.

Unless you are still physically dealing with something from that time, like Long Covid, there is nothing to be gained by going over and over this in your head.

It happened. We lived through a pandemic. Many others before us, have lived through worse - other pandemics, World Wars, the Holocaust to name but a few things. Be grateful that you survived it - and try to move on.

Every one I know (including my 82 year old Dad - who lost Mum in 2020) has moved on and is now enjoying life to it's fullest. Everyone is eating out, going to parties, having holidays, back to work etc, and I only know a few people who have caught covid, and it's been no worse than a cold, thanks to our wonderful vaccination programme.

It’s wanting to go back to a place that doesn’t exist. Hiraeth. I think I’ve spelt that correctly, not sure. 😂
You spelt it correctly and used it in the right context.
I have a slight aversion to the myth that surrounds it though. It's a word that has several meanings, many of them having equivalent English words.

It can be nostalgia, grief, heartbreak, sense of loss, missing something or someone, or a combination of those.

There are plenty of Welsh words without an absolute equivalent but hiraeth is the one that gets picked, and I don't think it's that special.

As regards the lockdown fallout, I feel a social isolation that hasn't really gone away. Unless I go to a shop or something, I don't talk to a human being.

I don't understand your question 🤔 for us lockdown was brilliant so much time together moved house both got much better jobs, it's been lovely. There is no fallout everything is so much better. If you don't explain what your fallout is I can't empathise or comment really.

@distinctpossibility it takes real courage and foresight to look back and be openly able to recognise and admit this.

I don't understand your question 🤔 for us lockdown was brilliant so much time together moved house both got much better jobs, it's been lovely. There is no fallout everything is so much better.

I'm fairly neutral about lockdown. It had its pluses and minuses.

The thing was, it was necessary to save lives.

Covid was, and is, a bastard though.

Yes I totally understand where you are coming from op 💐. I didn’t see any other threads and I have no idea why anyone would give you flack for this. If you are still dealing with the fallout, you are still dealing with the fallout!

Having teens and young adults go through vital years of education during the pandemic was so difficult and they are only now fully recovering in terms of their social life and studies.

I got very depressed during lockdown and shook it off during last summer but now it’s back. Not as bad as before but let’s just say I have lost confidence in my own mental health.

Worst of all we lost two very friends whose cancer was missed and we are still grieving hard. I miss them every day.

My world has been far more damaged by things non covid related. That doesn’t mean covid wasn’t bad but I’ve had a company merger/ toxic workplace etc all last year and now dh’s company is doing the same but these were all planned in 2019. Kindness and empathy has disappeared.

but, I think we had a very lucky position in lockdown - I had to go to work (nhs) so still saw friends, 3 dc had each other and bonded closer as a result, house is spacious, garden is ideal and dd1 mh was low pre lockdown so it allowed her to be an introvert and come through confident in herself the other end. I’m not bragging as this was lucky and I can see that many didn’t have that combination and will be scarred.

Can you give some examples of what you mean by fallout? I’m not sure I follow. As in long covid?

My life is the same as it was pre-lockdown other than it being more common for colleagues to work remotely now. But sounds like I’m in the minority as everyone else seems to know what you’re referring to?

Completely resonate with this.
Am desperate to move to a whole new area and get out of this house, being here depresses the crap out of me.
Would love a fresh start - just to see if that feeling of being 'alive' and not jaded is possible again! Not a lot that sparks joy these days.

Helpful. You don't need to be a genius to work out from the OP's posts that this was very much not the case for her.

Yes lockdown - not covid - was horrendous for us too. Three stressed out and isolated teenagers trying to spin "online learning" and working. Constant doom mongering from the likes of Sturgeon who kept us locked up longer than any other part of the UK. Seeing people who you thought were reasonable turn into the judgiest people on the planet. The overuse of words like safe, risk, exponential growth, covidiot, selfish, superspreader event.

Just urgh. On one hand it seems surreal and like it never happened. On the other, lots of us are still suffering from the ongoing effects.

I respect you for owning this. Not only would many not have hidden Jews, a lot of people on here would have turned the Jews over to the Nazis! Telling on neighbours for having more than the allowed visitors etc. It's good to see people's self awareness and confidence in their judgement come back. Propaganda was ramped up to an incredible level.