I've never felt so low in my whole life.

[ThereIsNoTomorrow]

Just posting to get it off my chest really, the dark thoughts have crept back in the last few nights.
Me and my 2 children are in a refuge because we are homeless, we are 2 weeks in and 17 and a half months away from being rehomed.
I feel like a complete failure to them, my medication for depression isnt even taking the edge off.
If I didnt have them with me I'd no longer be here, I dont know where to turn.
I have no family to ask for help because of my ex who was controlling and abusive, it's all just getting too much for me to cope with

Look to be honest i do most of what ArthurbellaScott says and I take 2 sleeping meds most nights 🤷‍♀️

they help !

Many, many people are unable or unwilling to protect their kids in the way that you’ve done. you’re not a failure at all.

I also thought the post upthread from the poster saying they remember their childhood experience in a refuge as a safe adventure was very sweet.

Did you get anywhere with the docs, OP?

Just wanted to say I really admire you OP. It takes a lot of courage to do what you’ve done. Your kids will thank you for it so much and you will look back one day and see how far you have come. Hang on in there. It will be worth it. ❤️

I just wanted to say that I have been where you are and it really does get easier. When you first leave you are still in a heightened state of fear the longer you are away from him the more you will heal. Relocating away from him is a great idea because you will be safe and feel better. You have done the hardest step leaving and getting through the early days, hopefully your life will be better soon.

The doctor has upped my medication but wont prescribe any sleeping tablets yet because of me being on new meds (they changed my prescribed anti depressant 4 weeks ago because the others were making me put weight on)

Feeling ok today thanks for checking in

ThereIsNoTomorrow

if you struggle I use otc
phenergrn , nytol one a night or melatonin x

Glad you're feeling okay today. Maybe the new meds will take a wee while to settle into.

My little boy said when can we leave here mommy I dont like it anymore 😞 broke my heart bless him, they're asleep now so I've cleaned my room had a bath and just laying here applying for other housing associations.
I hope you are all ok too

Oh, that sounds hard. One day at a time. You're doing so well.

@ThereIsNoTomorrow How are you getting on? You're in my thoughts and I hope you're doing okay!

Getting up everyday, getting the children to school so I'm ok at the moment. Feeling still quite down but it could be worse. The tablets are starting to take the edge off now, thank you so much for checking in.

You're doing so blooming well, OP. I'm hoping you can find somewhere more permanent to stay very soon, in the meantime, keep on keeping on. Lots of people here if you need somewhere to vent.

You're doing amazingly well.
Keep going.
As @ArthurbellaScott said vent away on here.