the reason I say that, is because I have been a non-believer my whole life and I know that POV.
I went to a CoE primary school so I think I know alot of the Bible stories and messages but not in any depth because my family was devout atheists. And I am a scientist.
however, at the age of 50 I think I might be 'finding faith', I don't really know what the term would be. there have been events and circumstances that I don't particularly want to go into, that have led me here. I have spent a lot of time in Church recently and have found it really comforting. I have prayed and I feel lighter. I can totally get on board with the ideology (as far as I know it). it fills in some of the holes left by science too. but I struggle with a lot of the actual belief in a creator and sacrifice of his son. I have a load of questions, but for starters;
1)if there is a creator, would she be female? it makes no sense that it would be male
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if you join God in heaven when you die, how do all the graves open to raise the souls, when Jesus returns? aren't they already there?
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I don't understand the logic of sacrificing Jesus for our sins. how does that help?
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I'm not keen that heaven is for believers and non-believers don't make it. there are some abominable people who would get into heaven and some amazing people that wouldn't. I don't even want to go if it's full of douches
TIA