It’s coming up for a year since I lost two people very special to me. I’ve spent all day crying, and crying. Life seems meaningless without them in it. I do good things but they’re always missing, and I am so, so utterly desperate to talk to them and get a cuddle and for them to tell me I’m doing alright.
I feel so crushingly alone. I have people around me but not who I really, really want.
I keep thinking about ending it all, I’ve spent all day thinking about how I’d do it. if the rest of my life is going to feel this way. but I’d be leaving people behind and I don’t want to cause more hurt. And maybe even ending it all wouldn’t give me what I want.
I have a support worker who understands. But it’s the weekend so can’t speak to her. I don’t know what to do.