I name changed. I have recently been put on an antidepressant by the doctor for peri menopause. Not sure if this is relevant.
Every single day brings more and more bad news from around the world. The state of the country, lack of money, Ukraine, climate change I could go on and on.
I am becoming increasingly reluctant about leaving the house. I go to work, I parent. I don’t want to go out anymore and I would rather sleep all day.
I can’t really concentrate on anything. I put on a film it goes off 10 mins later.
I worry about everything.
Most of all I worry about the future my children will have. And I’m scared to be around for it. I’m scared of them living hand to mouth, working and never being able to afford to live and I’m becoming obsessed with the thought that if I was to die, they would inherit my money and they would be able to build a better foundation than any I can provide for them.
I don’t think I want to get old. I’m scared of war, I’m just scared of life. I don’t see myself as ever growing old.
I know I’m rambling and I don’t want a response I just want to get my words down. Thank you.