I dont mean to sound flippant, Im just trying to get my head around it. Yesterday I went to see the haemotologist, my bloods are fine however the lump on my groin is not. Its about 5cm on the ultrasound. Ive had two weeks to google and have given myself some kind of lymphoma. Anyway the chap barely examined me. Well he checked my neck and armpits. Nothing. I went to take my trousers off and he said no keep them on. He touched the lump for ten seconds and said well, you have cancer😮 then he said dont worry dear there is much we can do. Never worry until you have to. He strongly thinks lymphoma and has referred me for a biopsy and my next appointment is in a months time. I feel fekking fine. Small weightloss die to stress and I have been itching for nearly a year which I put down to my new painkillers. God, I just want this biopsy done with as now ive started to imagine secondaries.
anyhoo I havent told my Glasto friends. Should I? Its a nightmare getting tickets but we have been for 20 years. Its our thing. We now glamp. Tickets out tomorrow. Should I go with the flow and try for them? Will it be something to aim for? Is Taylor Swift worth it? Can you go to a festival if youve had chemo? Will it be over with by them?
i feel like im living someone elses life😕