I used to worry about how much I drank but kept comparing myself to what I thought a stereotypical 'alcoholic' is: drinking in the morning, drinking every day, drinking only spirits and hiding it from people, and decided 'Nah, I must be alright, because that's not me.' Excused my binge drinking for years with all the reasons you've listed.
Then during the pandemic I started drinking more because I was bored and even though I didn't want to admit it was a bit depressed or at least restless and looking to booze to somehow 'entertain' me and make my night better. But soon the wine and prosecco wasn't enough and was getting too expensive to get me pissed so I added in whiskey at the end of the night (2 or 3 double measures), telling myself it was sophisticated and I was fine because I was doing it at home, at the weekend, not behaving badly, and so on.
Then around Christmas 2020 my hair started falling out. My energy levels were low, I felt tired a lot. My skin looked awful and I was bloated. I felt like shit all the time, even though I wasn't experiencing 'hangovers', as such. Turns out I'd just go so used to feeling awful that I didn't even recognise them as hangovers anymore. Then I had some blood tests done and found out that I was deficient in a whole host of things, all related to my alcohol use. I decided to do Dry January, get it back 'under control'. I'd done short stints off booze before, thought it was all l needed...a mini detox and then I'd behave myself and drink 'normally' again. Moderation and all that jazz.
But the niggling voice in my head that kept wondering 'Do I have a problem?' wouldn't go away. So I bought a couple books about sobriety and listened to some podcasts and about halfway through January it all clicked into place. Especially when I read the book 'Alcohol Explained' by William Porter. It explains both the physiological and psychological reasons why it's extremely difficult to ever reduce your drinking to a safe level once your body and brain have become accustomed to a certain level. Essentially, your dopamine system and neural pathways have become programmed to want, no NEED, more and more alcohol to achieve the feeling of happiness and relaxation you are seeking. And it will only get worse and worse, until you're needing vast amounts of booze to achieve the same feeling, and THAT is when people tip over into full-blown alcoholism. If you stop before you get to that point, it's much easier to quit. It's a really fascinating book, I highly recommend it if you're questioning your relationship with alcohol.
I've been sober for coming up to 2 years and I am so grateful that I quit when I did. I was in denial for a looooong time. I hope I haven't offended you, I'm not insinuating you are an alcoholic or on your way to becoming one, I'm just sharing my story in case it resonates with you because you sound exactly how I did before I could admit my drinking was problematic. Best of luck and take care of yourself. Sorry this was so long.