When was the last time you felt total and utter joy?

[Zebrasandfairytales]

I just thought this morning, I can’t remember when I last felt like that. That feeling of happiness, freedom, contentment, joy. Which is really sad.

I thought maybe reading others moments of joy might give me some joyspiration.

Or if others feel similar help me to feel less alone.

@TrustTheProcess thats’s so lovely, I’m pleased for you and don’t underestimate how hard you must have worked to get to this place.

That's amazing!! It's wonderful when people realise they really do have the power to change things for themselves from within, and it's not something that everyone can do on their own. Acknowledgment that help is needed is a huge step.
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I wish my mother had reached out rather than telling everyone nothing was wrong but inadvertently taking everyone in her orbit down with her.

Finding little pockets of happiness that were mine and couldn't be taken away by anyone was a snatched fleeting of joy for me.

I had to write poetry and stories under the bed covers though as we were not allowed books growing up.

And then I had this absolutely massive, wonderful library with thousands of books to read when I went to university - I was the first person in my family to go to uni and they could not understand how anyone could actually like reading and writing.

Absolute heaven.

@TrustTheProcess this is so wonderful to hear - huge well done and I really hope you enjoy your newfound peace and joy

Oh wow!! I would absolutely love to live near such a place. I used to go to a retreat in the Highlands near a beautiful Loch. I swam in it every day. On the last day I swam very early in the morning when there was no one around. The sun was coming up and all of nature seemed to be with me. Birds, animals, every living thing. It was absolutely amazing.

My best experiences have been in nature. Sadly I haven’t felt real joy in a very long time. Contentment is the most I can hope for these days. Moments of pleasure. They aren’t that frequent.