This is my first post, I hope I’ve posted in the correct place. I tried to find a mental health section but couldn’t see one.
I’m really not coping well with what’s happening in the world right now. In fact I’m paralysed with fear. All this talk of nuclear war is causing me multiple panic attacks and I just can’t function. Stupidly I made the mistake of researching about it and of course scared myself much more.
I have a young son who is full of the joys of life and every time I look at him I start crying. I have to hide my tears.
I want to protect him, to give him a long and happy life and it feels like all this could be taken away in an instant at the moment.
This morning for the first time I’m feeling suicidal, the thought of seeing my child scared and there being nothing I can do about it is haunting me daily. We live rurally so we wouldn’t be in the main blast zone, we’d be in the fall out which I keep reading is a much worse place to be.
Please be kind I’m struggling so much. I also have autism so I find most things hard anyway.
Hope I don’t upset anyone with my post. I don’t know if you use trigger warnings in these forums.