Just de-christmassed the house and feel so sad

[bloodywhitecat]

Because DH is asleep in his bed in the living room. All signs of Christmas are gone but all signs of his cancer rapidly taking hold are there. I don't know if I can do this. I keep leaving the room to cry.

I’m so sorry.

I'm so sorry @bloodywhitecat

You poor lamb.

I’m so sorry
It’s so so shit for you

I’m so sorry to hear this x

That sounds so difficult.

I'm so sorry. Sending as much strength and love as I can x

I just can't imagine what you're going through, massive hugs xxx

I struggled to put them up, I am struggling to take them down. I keep arguing they're just lights, but then all the Christmas past and future butt in. I fucking hate cancer.

I'm so sorry

Two and a half years ago this was me when DH finally had to take to a hospital bed downstairs instead of our bed.

Fuck cancer.
Sending you love and strength.

I’m so sorry.

So sorry OP

I'm so sorry. Cancer is shitxx

I’m so sorry. I know it means nothing from a stranger on the internet, but I really am. That’s just so shit for you.

I'm sorry ye are going through this huge hug x

So sorry bloodywhitecat I was thinking of you yesterday and wondering how you are doing

Cancer is indeed shit, the massive stroke he had in November just added insult to injury as it has robbed him of speech and the use of his right side.
The kindness of strangers on the Internet helps so thank you all and much love to those who have been through, or are going through, similar.

I’m so sorry @bloodywhitecat

I'm sorry to hear this. Puts my unwillingness to take down decs in sharp relief. I pray he recovers (if that is possible now?) and that you find the strength to support him through this.

No recovery likely, treatment is not possible while he has no mobility. His cancer has a 5 year survival rate of 7% with no spread and his had already spread before he had surgery in Oct 2020. He beat the odds to get this far. I was hoping we'd celebrate our first wedding anniversary in May but I doubt it now.

I am so so sorry.

I’m so sorry, that is beyond awful for you both to deal with.

Thinking of you. I wish there was something I could say to make it better, but there isn’t is there? Please try to look after yourself too, and know there are unknown people sending kindness your way. I haven’t been in your position, but do have a dd with a serious genetic disorder, and had to bluelighted to hospital as she wasn’t breathing just before Christmas, so know something of the pain and fear you are going though. Sending a hand hold and solidarity your way 💐

Thinking of you. I have been there when my DH passed aged 37. It’s so rubbish and hard. One step and one breath at a time. Here if you want to dm x