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How do I change my fucked up attitude to food?

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 20:13

I'm so fed up. I have such a totally messed up attitude to food, have for years. I'm pre diabetic and totally addicted to sugar. I have cravings, then guilt, I skip meals, then binge, I eat in secret, I try low carbing then have chocolate. I have so many emotions around food and no self control.
I've tried and tried to have self control and discipline but I'm home all day and it's very hard. But even if it's not in the house I go out and buy it.
I literally don't know what to do. I have no energy or motivation either.
Totally disgusted with myself.

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MintyGreenDream · 07/10/2021 20:16

I'm like this although not diabetic.Im getting really down with it all tbh.

leonaaaa · 07/10/2021 20:16

Never ever feel disgusted with yourself at all lovely! im not being horrible so please don't take this the wrong way but have you went to see the doctor these things you are doing seems like an Eating disorder I am actually recovering from a few of the things you are doing not that you have one but maybe try get some help from an expert x

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 20:20

I've not but likelihood of being able to see a Dr and them doing anything seems very unlikely at the moment.
I'm on anti depressants.

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leonaaaa · 07/10/2021 20:31

thats very true I would try ring up in the morning like they said and say its an emergency, do you think your anti depressants help x

Caerus · 07/10/2021 20:37

Listen to ‘freedom from the diet cycle’ podcast. You can’t white knuckle it, you need to work on why you are powerless over sugary food. The guy who does it is brilliant & even offers 1-1 coaching if you want it. It’s really shifted my mindset. Good luck.

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 20:41

Thank you.

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 20:42

@leonaaaa

thats very true I would try ring up in the morning like they said and say its an emergency, do you think your anti depressants help x
They do help me to some extent. I don't think me being a greedy fuck is an emergency! I currently have 2 large bars of chocolate hidden in my car. I don't want them, feel sick at the thought of them, but also reassured that they are there.
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PurpleDaisies · 07/10/2021 20:43

There’s brilliant support on the weight loss chat board. It’s really difficult and you don’t need to be ashamed. You’re at the point where you’re ready to do something about it and just need a bit of support Flowers

picklemewalnuts · 07/10/2021 20:43

Have you tried focussing on what you should eat, not what you shouldn't? Try planning some sensible food- things you like, but nutritious. Add in extra raw fruit and veg. Tell yourself you can have whatever you like, but only after you've eaten the planned food.

So egg on wholemeal toast breakfast,
Jacket potato and beans lunch
Roast chicken, carrots, beans and roast potatoes (sprayed with oil, not swimming in it!)
Yogurt fruit pud.
Mid morning and mid afternoon snacks of fruit and veg.

When you've eaten all that, if you want to, have something else.

If you eat properly without feeling guilty, you won't feel so driven to binge and crash and starve in cycles.

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 20:47

Thank you, that is good advice.
I could cry with how messed up I've become with all this and I'm sure it's making me tired.
I don't know what to eat or where to start.
If I do proper low carb high fat I have more energy and feel fuller. But I can't beat the sugar cravings.

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FreeBritnee · 07/10/2021 20:52

I know this is a really weird concept but you need to replace sugar with fat when you’re low carbing. People often just cut everything out and then feel hungry and binge. If you replace sugar with fat you feel full up without triggering an insulin release.

leonaaaa · 07/10/2021 20:52

Your not greedy thats kinda what a binge eating disorder is have a look into it you are binging then you skip meals thats not the good that you do that because of your guilt x

Dillydollydingdong · 07/10/2021 20:53

I find that if I want something sweet, then sucky sweets help. Mintoes, boiled sweets, something like that. A sweet will last 10-15 minutes, and it's better than chomping on a bar of chocolate (or three).

FreeBritnee · 07/10/2021 20:55

@Namechange768

Thank you, that is good advice. I could cry with how messed up I've become with all this and I'm sure it's making me tired. I don't know what to eat or where to start. If I do proper low carb high fat I have more energy and feel fuller. But I can't beat the sugar cravings.
If I have a sugar craving I have something sweet but it’s not off the diet sweet. xylitol is an excellent sugar substitute. So I like to have a coffee made with unsweetened almond milk or coconut milk. I put in it caramel flavouring and half a teaspoon of xylitol. It feels like I’m having a Costa latte but it hasn’t got all the bad crap in it. It’s a case of swaps instead of deprivation.
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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 20:56

@FreeBritnee

I know this is a really weird concept but you need to replace sugar with fat when you’re low carbing. People often just cut everything out and then feel hungry and binge. If you replace sugar with fat you feel full up without triggering an insulin release.
Yeh I've done that. Done bootcamp. Still eat all the fat! But eat all the other stuff too. I do think I have some sort of eating disorder. At this precise moment I feel on the verge of tears, I feel traumatised about food. I feel sick and anxious.
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NaturalBlue · 07/10/2021 20:56

I’ve managed to curb my evening chocolate cravings with a strong hot chocolate. It didn’t work tonight and I still had two chocolate croissants and two chocolate bars after but usually enough to make me feel a bit sick, the sucky feeling I am after when I’m binging... I also have a messed up relationship with food.

Verbena87 · 07/10/2021 20:56

Sounds like a kind of addiction/dysfunctional coping strategy for something to me. You probably need to address whatever pain/unresolved issue you’re ‘self-medicating’ for with sugar. I suspect that would be way more effective than adopting a rigid diet or focussing on carbs/fats/whatever.

GreekGod · 07/10/2021 20:58

you will be amazed how many of us are like this - my friends and I are all pretty much like this especially when we are going through stressful times , i find that I do it while I'm at home on weekends. Watching shows especially housewives helps for me. the difference is that i don't beat myself up about it anymore, i just start fresh the next day again

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 21:00

@Verbena87

Sounds like a kind of addiction/dysfunctional coping strategy for something to me. You probably need to address whatever pain/unresolved issue you’re ‘self-medicating’ for with sugar. I suspect that would be way more effective than adopting a rigid diet or focussing on carbs/fats/whatever.
How would I do this?
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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 21:01

I actually feel like I want to go and make myself sick. I won't, I've never done thst or thought about it before. Don't know why I feel so nauseous.

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YouBringLightInToADarkPlace · 07/10/2021 21:02

I did 7 months of a milkshake-only diet in order to completely break my relationship with food. I lost a lot of weight but primarily the reason for it was to give myself really strict boundaries- I wasn't allowed ANYTHING other than 4 meal replacements, tea, coffee and water. Not necessarily the healthiest way but honestly it was so liberating- no decisions to make.

PurpleDaisies · 07/10/2021 21:02

@Namechange768

I actually feel like I want to go and make myself sick. I won't, I've never done thst or thought about it before. Don't know why I feel so nauseous.
Right now? Find some way to distract yourself and it will pass. Podcast, tv programme, book. Anything to take your mind off it
Verbena87 · 07/10/2021 21:03

Not sure really. A good therapist, fierce honesty and lots of self-compassion?

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Namechange768 · 07/10/2021 21:03

What doesn't help is I'm constantly cooking different meals. My husband is vegan but eats a lot of processed vegan stuff.
My kids like very different food to each other.

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PurpleDaisies · 07/10/2021 21:04

Does he cook at all?

There are lots of healthy vegan meals based around veg, tofu etc rather than the processed stuff.