Bring us your worries, big or small! The nightshift will hold them so you can sleep

[2018SoFarSoGreat]

Well, that LAST THREAD filled up much faster - so glad so many of us are finding this a place of comfort. How lucky we are to have so many of us on standby to hold our fears and worries, so that we can rest.

No questions asked, no solutions given, just the offer of a place to lay down our burdens. All are welcome.

I am still reading here.
Things aren’t getting better, I need to go update my other thread about stuff, if I can find it!

Bottom line is I can’t attend for treatment and due to hoarding they can’t come here so no more gp, which also means I’m ineligible for disability benefits as well - crisis services having decided I need to be reassessed for those as not had any treatment so not suitable. That I’ve been in crisis, to the extent of police visiting and wanting me sectioned apparently doesn’t mean I’m struggling. They actually used the word “lazy”.

I can’t attend due to disability, struggle with phones due to disability and can’t have them here due mental health issues, possibly again disability.

It’s becoming extremely hard to hide what I am going through.

I’m leaving this here, if anyone wants to watch it (or whack it, or bury it, or, lock it in a cupboard somewhere) that’d be great!

I will take this for you @Becca19962014. I'll hold it and get Cat to watch it behaves if I fall asleep. You get some rest.

@Becca19962014 giving it a good whack and popping it in the cupboard for you. All the time whilst hoping things can ease off for you

Thank you both!

GP and social services going to force examination on me.
Stopped meds. Not slept since Saturday and terrified.

I can’t put thread as too terrified of being abused for it.

There’s no help or understanding at all.

@Becca19962014 you're in my thoughts today. I'll hold the fear and the worry, if you can let it go for a bit. Can you perhaps find a way to see this as a good step forward? Something needs to change, and this may be it. I know how scary that is, but let me hold that fear, if you possibly can.

Everyone keeps saying that to me but I can’t.
I’m so terrified. I can’t cope at all.

@Becca19962014

Everyone keeps saying that to me but I can’t. I’m so terrified. I can’t cope at all.

Checking into say I'm thinking of you ♥️

I hope you find a good advocate and someone you can trust amongst all these new people

I’m struggling so much, absolutely terrified. Today it’s very likely my meds will be stopped, there’s a thread in 30 days if you want to know details. Can’t go into it again. I’m so frightened.

So sorry @Becca19962014 ♥️♥️♥️

oh no, so sorry, @Becca19962014. So sorry!

So I got my meds for a few days. I should have been happy but ended up falling apart. I don’t understand why it’s so hard for me. I feel like I’m trapped struggling and there’s no support. It’s terrifying.

Please can I leave this here, again.

I’m sorry. I daren’t speak to anyone in RL again.

I'm so glad you got you meds after worrying about it! I kind of understand that 'should be happy but I'm not ' feeling. It stinks, but it's as if the expectation was too much to process.

Anyway. Just leave it here @Becca19962014. I've got this and you just rest up. Go on. Cozy in and let it go. It's OK.

Thankyou. Today has been very difficult. It’s hard too for those here as my mental health worsens as I’m feeling increasing pressures with everything. My meds, soon will cease. It’s so hard. I’ve hundreds of emails I can’t bear to even begin looking at. If I sleep then I just dream of being trapped and hurt, if I don’t then I get ill. Today I had a really humiliating ibs attack in a shop (no toilet and it was obvious to everyone).

Up late because my dog is so poorly and I'm terrified she will die.
she's only a baby (2 years old) and has never been ill before, but she's vomited everything for a week, the vet can't find a cause and if she doesn't imrpove she will have to go into to hospital where she will be terrified, to look for an obstruction in her gut.
She's next to me with her head on my lap, just so tired and limp. I love her so much and she just keeps looking at me as if to say 'make it better' (£300 vet bills so far and not better)

@StillMedusa I’m sorry to read this. Let me take take the worry for you and you curl up with your lovely dog. You’re doing your best, I’m sure she knows that and sounds like she wants to be with you.

Can I join. Been the most stressful year of my life, house move, ill parents, ill in laws, bereavement, potential for another bereavement, worried husband is going to crash now that important work situation has eased and I’m on the edge.
The only reason I’m sleeping at present is because I gave in and asked the doctor to help. The most stressful things are over but adrenaline has kept us going so just waiting for the almighty crash.
Work is my only solace but it’s the only thing that can give and I don’t want it too as it also helps me. But I am so so tired.

Becca19962014 , thank you, and I am so sorry about your situation. I have two daughters with the same (I think) medical condition, one of whom has had immense struggles with mental health (anorexia, OCD and a shed load of others) and I can't imagine her not having the loving family support that has kept her going . You deserve a kinder, better life and I amthinking of you xx

Ah @GearChange that sounds like such a lot to deal with. No wonder you are tired!

Glad you came here. Let us hold onto as much of that load as you can pass over. We will be tender and firm and shush it so that it quiets. It's OK.

You don't have to worry about it all for now. We've got you. You just rest.

@Becca19962014 and @StillMedusa you are both so lovely and caring.

I trust you have this, I shall hold any worries and fears that escape, and be backup. Hopefully things will start looking up soon.

For now, cosy in and let your body and soul rest. Sleep. You deserve some peace 💐

I was mugged on Wednesday, they took my phone and purse containing bank card ID and door access cards, I was already struggling financially and overwhelmed by everything, this has left me feeling drained and devastated. I had social anxiety anyway and now want to leave this area entirely , I don't feel safe anymore. I'm angry at the person who targeted me and at the police and companies for lack of help and me having to pay out for replacements I cannot afford when I am a victim of the crime, there is nothing to help people in a situation like this and it's truly appalling. I could barely pay my rent and feed myself due to expenses as it is, now I am financially screwed.

@halloweenie13 that's truly evil. I'm so sorry to read this. You must feel so violated.

For now, try to leave it with us, and get some sleep. You need to cosy in and rest now. It's OK for now. Really.

@halloweenie13 @GearChange @Becca19962014 @StillMedusa

Just here, to say hi and to let you know I've got my special little broom and dustpan, gathering up some of those worries, to hold them for you til daybreak.

I wish I’d come back here last night instead of staying in bed terrified having night terrors. Am exhausted.

Hope everyone is ok

I have Covid and it's gone to my chest 😞

I've got enough medication but I'm home alone for a few days and feel pants at night, and a bit scared sometimes