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ADs happily share Dave Grohl whilst running in the dark?

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NannyGythaOgg · 10/02/2021 23:41

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MercyBooth · 20/02/2021 02:03

Remember "celebrate Christmas at Easter"

www.thesun.co.uk/news/14104970/two-households-outside-easter-boris-johnson-lockdown/

110APiccadilly · 20/02/2021 04:35

Ah. It turns out the only reason my back wasn't getting ridiculously stiff despite no gym or swimming was DD thoughtfully waking me at least every 2 hours at night.

DD, amazingly, decided to let me sleep for 5 hours straight tonight. My tiredness levels are immensely improved - and my back is totally shot! Will try some Pilates later but really I need a good swim. I really don't want to try getting back in the sea in February, with a C section scar that's still hurting though.

TabbyStar · 20/02/2021 06:58

Swimming is what I'm missing too, but I don't know how I'm going to find time for it when pools open as my days are currently taken up by having to do one to two hours a day of going with DD to work, as although she's perfectly capable of driving herself her test was cancelled and God knows when she'll get to take it. She counts as a keyworker too, and I'm pretty sure there was some exemption around driving lessons and tests in the first lockdown. It's even worse than commuting as some days I have to do there and back twice rather than just going and staying.

110APiccadilly · 20/02/2021 07:21

That sounds tough Tabby. I think you're right that there was an exemption for keyworkers doing driving tests. There should be more fuss being made about driving tests as having a driving licence can havea big impact on being able to get a job, and the backlog must be enormous now.

wanderings · 20/02/2021 07:38

A few bus stop adverts (the ones which say HM Government) near where I am have been "modified" with things stuck to them, such as how much the NHS spent on gagging orders. I don't know why there hasn't been more of this; are the Covid marshals (did they ever appear?) removing such things?

Worldgonecrazy · 20/02/2021 07:50

@MercyBooth. I didn’t know that about the electric companies. I am shocked and saddened that we still treat people like that. We need to step outside of our bubbles (pun intended) and see how other humans are being forced to live.

I’m probably not going to vote in the upcoming elections because all parties are shit, but by the Gods, any campaigners or canvassers who come near me are going to get both barrels.

chocolatesweets · 20/02/2021 08:14

I feel like a crap mother.

Kids have woken up bright and early and want to play. I don't want them to feel unwanted but I don't want my dd singing loudly in our bedroom. I feel sick I need a break so much. It's relentless. I feel like an empty shell walking around. I didn't sign up for this when I wanted "a baby". And that makes me feel guilty too. That I ordered one and not two. And that I didn't have an established career at 30 when I conceived them. I'm 34 now. I just want my life back.

LivinLaVidaLoki · 20/02/2021 09:02

I had started to feel optimistic lately but today just feels hard.

I haven't slept more than 5 hours a night this week, I'm shattered.
I feel like my body clock is all to cock. I feel like a zombie most of the day but then the second my head hits the pillow at night my brain switches on and I can't stop thinking about everything from dinner the next day to where we can go on our walk the next day, I feel too hot or too cold or I'm lying the wrong way. Then worry if ds has a school place from one week to the next. It's bizarre. Then because of that, I'm properly awake.

I've been able to cope with it this week as I've been on leave but don't know how I'll cope with it if it doesn't improve when I'm back at work next week.

I've a docs appointment at 1030 hopefully she'll give me some sleep tips. Or something. Anything.

LivinLaVidaLoki · 20/02/2021 09:15

Also the amount of salivating that Chris Whitty doesn't agree with the full opening of school. So fucking what? He is a specific professional with a specific remit who advises on that specific thing. He does not balance it against other specific advice, he does not make policy (rightly so) and he is not the king of all things scientific.

mightbealittlebitmad · 20/02/2021 09:24

@chocolatesweets

I feel like a crap mother.

Kids have woken up bright and early and want to play. I don't want them to feel unwanted but I don't want my dd singing loudly in our bedroom. I feel sick I need a break so much. It's relentless. I feel like an empty shell walking around. I didn't sign up for this when I wanted "a baby". And that makes me feel guilty too. That I ordered one and not two. And that I didn't have an established career at 30 when I conceived them. I'm 34 now. I just want my life back.

I'm the same, I just need a small amount of alone time away from the kids. Thursday I went to watch TV and left my 5 year old playing downstairs nicely, went back down to find he had smeared mustard all over the fridge and broken several eggs.

I went absolutely mad and had a full on meltdown. Rang my husband and told him I was leaving and he would have to take time off work to deal with it all because 6 weeks of being at home on top of last year has broken me. That morning I had had my 5 year old crying because his 3 year old brother was going to nursery and he didn't want him to because he would miss him.

I thankfully have managed to escape to a local air b&b so I'm holed up here for the weekend to recharge and praying that my 5 year old can go to school in 2 weeks. He shouldn't be so reliant on his younger brother, he needs kids his own age to play with. He's immature as it is so it's not going to help.

This whole thing is just so hard, everyone I speak to now is miserable and completely fed up and have lost all their motivation.

BogRollBOGOF · 20/02/2021 09:27

I just resent waking up every morning.
Oddly I'm in no rush to go to sleep at night, but having had no nightlife in the past 10 years, being lin the house in the evening is the most normal bit of existing in the house constantly. Plus it's nice having an hour or two of quiet as the understimualated, under exercused DCs are on waking/ sleep patterns very close to ours.

I used to like waking early and getting a slight head start to the day with some yoga. Now to stiff for yoga to appeal.
I used to feel amused by my rapidly approaching 40th birthday, but I feel it now! That's come on since December with my exercise patterms being so disrupted and the total evapioration of any personal motivation in a void of time and a vacuum of personal space.

TooManyPlatesInMotion · 20/02/2021 09:32

@chocolatesweets

I feel like a crap mother.

Kids have woken up bright and early and want to play. I don't want them to feel unwanted but I don't want my dd singing loudly in our bedroom. I feel sick I need a break so much. It's relentless. I feel like an empty shell walking around. I didn't sign up for this when I wanted "a baby". And that makes me feel guilty too. That I ordered one and not two. And that I didn't have an established career at 30 when I conceived them. I'm 34 now. I just want my life back.

I feel similar. I feel that I have nothing left to give at the moment. And trying to remain positive for the sake of my eldest is really hard, when I don't feel it. "These are bad times, it will get better, hang on in there" etc it just feels a bit empty sometimes.

Weekends are hard! We just walk to the local shops to buy nice bread for lunch... And that is the highlight of the day.

SirSamuelVimes · 20/02/2021 09:57

[quote MercyBooth]Remember "celebrate Christmas at Easter"

www.thesun.co.uk/news/14104970/two-households-outside-easter-boris-johnson-lockdown/[/quote]
I honestly think that even Boris et al know that this won't fly. So many people are at breaking point.

chocolatesweets · 20/02/2021 10:36

@TooManyPlatesInMotion

@mightbealittlebitmad

😢 I'm sorry you feel that way. When I read your comments I think that there is no way both of you can be a bad mothers because you care to comment and you have nothing left to give. If that isn't a good mum I don't know what is.

mightbealittlebitmad · 20/02/2021 10:42

[quote chocolatesweets]@TooManyPlatesInMotion

@mightbealittlebitmad

😢 I'm sorry you feel that way. When I read your comments I think that there is no way both of you can be a bad mothers because you care to comment and you have nothing left to give. If that isn't a good mum I don't know what is. [/quote]
In the grand scheme of things I'm not. They are loved, well looked after, entertained but I'm at the end of my tether and quick to lose my temper with them now so my days are just so shouty.

My 5 year old is bored and fed up so he's playing up more which then has a knock on effect on me and we go round in circles.

I wish I could be better though, I wish I could have an infinite amounts of patience, was happy living this half life so then I would be in a better mood and able to deal with them a lot more.

ISaySteadyOn · 20/02/2021 11:01

I would like to say that as far as I can see, every single woman on this thread is doing her absolute best under extremely trying and unsupportive circumstances and still has enough to give to be supportive to all the other women on this thread. Losing patience doesn't make you bad, it makes you human. Enough people already gather to have goes at women for not being enough or doing enough or for existing at all. Please let's not help them by doing it to ourselves! Flowers orBrew orCake or Wine to everyone. Take your pick.

Worldgonecrazy · 20/02/2021 11:08

Well said.

It feels like we take it in turns to be up and down.

Cake and wine for everyone.

We have come so far together. We don’t know how much further we have to go, thanks to those ever shifting goal posts, but we will get there. And then the ice creams on the beach will be on me.

TooManyPlatesInMotion · 20/02/2021 11:11

Thank you for your kind comments. It is just my turn to have a shit day! My kids are of course well loved (she types while listening to a massive tantrum unfold downstairs). We are going out in the sunshine, so hopefully that will help a bit.

LivinLaVidaLoki · 20/02/2021 11:31

I've been prescribed anti depressants to help me sleep. To be taken half an hour before bed.
I was on ADs for pnd 10 years ago and this just feels like a huge step back.

I can't help but wonder, anti depressants are supposed to help when you have a disproportionate emotional reaction, but what is a proportionate reaction to not seeing friends or family for a year, to not hugging anyone, not knowing if your child has a school place from week to week and spending most of your life within these 4 walls?

LivinLaVidaLoki · 20/02/2021 11:33

Oh and I've to take a week off work to give them time to work. Sounds great, but what am I supposed to do all day.

SirSamuelVimes · 20/02/2021 11:47

@LivinLaVidaLoki I feel the same way, I'm back on antidepressants after having got off them after leaving a dire work situation and relearning how to be a normal human, not a constantly stressed, panicked and miserable person who was existing in a permanent state of fight or flight. I went back on them at the start of lockdown 2. I need them but it felt like a failure. I was also set up with a course of CBT but I stopped that after the first couple of sessions (online workshops) because it felt like gaslighting, tbh. Like I was the one who was having a disproportionate reaction to the world, that I was wrong, rather than the world being wrong. It was making me feel worse. I don't need to learn to manage my reaction to being under house arrest. I need not to be under house arrest.

SirSamuelVimes · 20/02/2021 11:48

@ISaySteadyOn

I would like to say that as far as I can see, every single woman on this thread is doing her absolute best under extremely trying and unsupportive circumstances and still has enough to give to be supportive to all the other women on this thread. Losing patience doesn't make you bad, it makes you human. Enough people already gather to have goes at women for not being enough or doing enough or for existing at all. Please let's not help them by doing it to ourselves! Flowers orBrew orCake or Wine to everyone. Take your pick.
Hear hear!
justasking111 · 20/02/2021 13:27

I took anti depressants on and off for years, not depression but my pregnancies flattened my batteries agoraphobia set in. They worked. I don't need them now despite the symptoms because it's outside madness not internal body chemistry

LivinLaVidaLoki · 20/02/2021 13:51

I don't need them now despite the symptoms because it's outside madness not internal body chemistry

That's what I think.

thefallthroughtheair · 20/02/2021 14:27

SirSamuel
That is so true. I went back on anti deps but came off them straight away due to insomnia. But I felt like shouting 'it's not MY mental health that's the issue here. MY reaction is entirely normal in the face of societal insanity'