Why are you awake?

[BastardCancerBastardCovid]

I'm up eating crisps. My mum is very ill with cancer and I couldn't eat Christmas dinner yesterday, sleep wasn't happening for me tonight and I suddenly had intense cravings for a scalding hot cup of tea and something very salty. So here I am, on the couch. Munching and MNetting.

What are you doing, what's on your mind at nearly 4am?

I'm on the other side of the world, it's 2pm.

Cat woke me up for a cuddle and normally quiet DH is snoring because of a cold and keeping me awake. Anyone available for an alibi?

Hard times OP

I’m still digesting food. Going to put the Louis Theroux podcast from last week on and try to sleep soon. Unfortunately the jack for charging my phone is the same as my headphones and my phone is at 10%

I do have a very unattractive eye mask with Bluetooth headphones in - but it is also dead.

Sorry to hear about your mum

I've just watched a couple of episodes of Bridgerton on Netflix, it's been nice having a few hours to myself after a busy day. Today with DH and my boys has been lovely but there's stressful extended family stuff going on behind the scenes which is very difficult. It's on my mind a lot but there's nothing I can do so I've been drinking wine and eating chocolate.

I'm still awake because I had a long nap after dinner, but I'm heading to bed in a minute. Might take a cup of tea up with me.

Sorry to hear about your mum. 💐 I think I’ve eaten and drunk too much. Woke up with indigestion. Should have gone for a walk after dinner. Really fancied a cup of tea, so am sat here with dog for company and a brew.

A few of us with the urge for tea in the dead of night, it seems!

I hope everyone can get some sleep soon.

My mum who I lost in April, the first Xmas without her was harder than I had even anticipated.
Sorry to hear about your mum, the world is so unfair

I'm pleasantly surprised how much better my stomach feels after shovelling in a heap of crisps. I keep having a deeply weird rippling sensation through it and can't eat, just stress but very annoying.

@mrssunshinexxx cross posted with you, I am so sorry for your loss

Yes, the world is breathtakingly cruel at times.

Sorry to hear about your mum OP , I'm awake because I went to bed last night at 8.30 . A consequence of being called into work early hours of Christmas morning .

OP
I'm trying to work out the implications for my Dd in tier 3 doing GCSEs, my DS working in the NHS in tier 4 who starts a new job tomorrow and my job when I go back next week. Clear as mud.

Night shift worker

Sorry about your Mum. The hospital called an hour and a half ago to say my Dad has died of a Covid related issue. I am with my mum and we are still in quarantine so couldn't be with him, we both have Covid. He was the kindest, most hardworking man. He didn't deserve to die this way. No one can come and visit to help me support my mum for a few more days yet. My DH is negative so he is safe at my home.

So sorry, OP. 💐

I'm awake because I've just dispatched DH off to A&E in a taxi. An hour ago, he got up with indigestion, didn't switch on the light and fell down our steep loft stairs. His foot is at a very strange angle.

OP, I hope the crisps and tea help!

I'm awake in pain, possibly miscarrying my first pregnancy at 10 weeks. Rang the EPU this afternoon when I had bleeding (which has been constant for me throughout, 2 early scans showed one healthy heartbeat and one empty sac, but was a bit worrying today) but no pain and they told me not to come in and booked me in for the first available scan on the 29th.

Started cramping about 8pm, had a bit of sleep, woke up at about 1. So just waiting to see whether it gets bad enough to need to go in now afterall.

It has not been a merry Christmas so far

I'm drunk and emotionally not well lol

@JellyNo15

Sorry about your Mum. The hospital called an hour and a half ago to say my Dad has died of a Covid related issue. I am with my mum and we are still in quarantine so couldn't be with him, we both have Covid. He was the kindest, most hardworking man. He didn't deserve to die this way. No one can come and visit to help me support my mum for a few more days yet. My DH is negative so he is safe at my home.

We cross-posted. I'm so sorry, @JellyNo15.

@JellyNo15 I'm so sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry to hear about your mum OP and your dad @JellyNo15.

I'm awake with a banging headache that paracetamol has not touched, drinking glasses of water in case I'm dehydrated.

Sorry to hear about your Mums @BastardCancerBastardCovid and @mrssunshinexxx

@DinkBoo and a handhold for you.

Im awake because of bastard insomnia. Its always awful but to make matters worse I forgot to pack my sleeping tablets . Plus I'm hungry but I'm at my Mums house and she might not appreciate me raiding the fridge at 4.30am.

Jelly I'm so sorry just read your post.

for you too @JellyNo15. Sorry I missed your post.

Toothache and anxiety from hell here. Christ I never realised how awful it can be. To those who have lost loved ones I am very sorry to hear that, best wishes x

@BastardCancerBastardCovid

Sorry to hear about your mum.
It’s good you are there with her. Xx

@JellyNo15 I am so very sorry about your dad. Handholding.

@DinkBoo, that sounds very scary, I hope you are ok

I hope everyone who is in pain, physical or emotional, can find some ease from the relentlessness of it. The bleakness can be fucking rough.