How is everyone feeling? A space to talk without judgement

[wheresmymojo]

So obviously it's a bit of a shit time right now for all sorts of reasons.

I know there are a million threads out there already but I thought it might be nice to have one place where people can say how they're feeling without judgement.

So please respect this as it would be good to:

• Let people say how they feel without making them feel guilty about it

• Playing suffering Olympics, there's always someone having a worse time than us but your feelings are still valid

• Getting into debates about the rights or wrongs of the approach / lockdown / whatever. There are plenty of threads for that already.

This is a little quiet space of the interwebs where you can share how you're doing and where we will hear you

Gnarled with anxiety. Like something is eating me from the inside. There is not one area of my life I feel in control of and satisfied with and the sense of being trapped inside a building that is about to collapse is intense.

I am feeling on hold.
Last week I had a little cry every day, now it feels as though my feelings are on hold, I feel as though I am on ADs again.

I feel like a weight has been lifted at the moment. I hadn't appreciated just how anxious I'd been getting about things. DD passing her driving test yesterday and work overseas that has been postponed has made me feel a lot better.

I can cope with lockdown but I might just nip to my parents (garden) tomorrow as i don't know when I'll be able to see them again.

Sad. I walked through my beloved Northumberland street today on the way to an appointment. I wondered how many shops will remain after this, how many people will be losing their jobs. I felt I could taste the anxiety from the scores of shoppers buying gifts for family they don't know when they can see again. I had flash backs to previous Christmases , waiting for fenwicks window to unveil and taking granddaughter to fenwicks toy department. It felt eerie, busy but silent. I did not hear or see the usual buskers. I've remained strong through this but today I cracked, its built up and I've had a good cry.

Thank you for this thread 💐

Wish I was back in Northumberland. I work overseas and can't get home because of work and daughter/grandson can't come here because flights from the local airport to where I am stopped after the 1st wave.

I miss my family so much I think I'm starting to get depressed.

Not great but lucky if that makes sense?

joswis 💐

to everyone who's struggling.

I'm a mixture of numb and worried which i didnt think was possible. Soooo many things Im carrying as a single mum - my mh as have cptsd, ds currently paralysed with fnd, dd with asd in yr 11 and super stressed, i also have severe spinal injury. Worried about US election. Worried about getting sacked as I've had so much time off with back. Trying not to drink every night to escape.
Very grateful for lovely home, some very good friends, ironically relying so much on benefits means my income hasn't changed too badly. And for mumsnetters.
Very up and down.

I feel a bit scared. Because I feel like the lunatics have taken over the asylum 🥺

I feel crap. I'm tired. I miss my now ex husband even though he cheated on me. I feel unending hatred for my ex friend because she caused all this (I kmow he is at fault as well but its a long story)

And covid.

lunalulu that's exactly how it feels!

Sorry to hear that sideorderofchips. I remember you from a Christmas thread many, many moons ago when there was a baby chips? Hope you find some peace and comfort soon.

@Mrsfussypants1

Sad. I walked through my beloved Northumberland street today on the way to an appointment. I wondered how many shops will remain after this, how many people will be losing their jobs. I felt I could taste the anxiety from the scores of shoppers buying gifts for family they don't know when they can see again. I had flash backs to previous Christmases , waiting for fenwicks window to unveil and taking granddaughter to fenwicks toy department. It felt eerie, busy but silent. I did not hear or see the usual buskers. I've remained strong through this but today I cracked, its built up and I've had a good cry.

Christmas will definitely be weird for us this year.

We are VERY big Christmas people and got married at the beginning of December because we love the run up to Christmas so much.

This year we can't afford presents or a Christmas tree

Will be putting the rest of the decorations up though and I like to do Christmas flavoured art with white chalk pens on the windows so will throw myself into that!

@colouringindoors

to everyone who's struggling.

I'm a mixture of numb and worried which i didnt think was possible. Soooo many things Im carrying as a single mum - my mh as have cptsd, ds currently paralysed with fnd, dd with asd in yr 11 and super stressed, i also have severe spinal injury. Worried about US election. Worried about getting sacked as I've had so much time off with back. Trying not to drink every night to escape.
Very grateful for lovely home, some very good friends, ironically relying so much on benefits means my income hasn't changed too badly. And for mumsnetters.
Very up and down.

That's a lot to have on one person's plate

Great thread, thanks.

I feel pretty sad at the moment although I know so many people are in a much worse position than me . I was made redundant in May from a senior position with a Company that I was with for over 20 years. I have been lucky and have managed to find another job working from home, although the money is significantly less we will get by without worrying about debt.

I live in Manchester and am a shielder which means I havent hugged my daughter or my mum since March, my god duaghter had a baby in May and I havent hugged him either. I really miss my family we are very close and spend a lot of time together. I have seen my daughter and mum on walks and when we were allowed in the garden but I just want to touch them.

I know this will pass but some days are hard.

to you all

A nice question op

I feel both ok and a bit grotty

Worse on day lockdown announced, slightly better now

Saw a post about Aus getting to no CV which made me feel pretty bad (family there comparison is stark).

Feel like each day the dc have normalcy of going to school is very appreciated

Running and garden is really helping and seeing friend outside on Friday

sideorderofchips 💐 keep strong chips and baby chips x

I'm worried for my friends who have businesses and jobs in retail and my best friend's partner is currently working for a company that supplies an aircraft assembly line. My heart is breaking that my friend is in tears about it being likely that their partner will be let go. They bought a house the week before lockdown and also had to cancel their wedding and lost their honeymoon money too and then the same friend's mum died. It's just too much unfairness for them to get all this.

Down. No mojo. My family are 300 miles away and my friends are either bubbling together or ignoring the rules, so I'm left out either way.

DH is wonderful but works shifts with very long days and nights so I'm alone a lot.

I can definitely feel the old black dog nipping.

We are very lucky that our income probably won't be affected. A positive about schools remaining open is that at least the kids will see their friends there, even if they can't do the usual sports/clubs etc.

But I am high risk/vulnerable & im pretty sure that I may not survive if I get a bad dose of covid. One of the DC is also vulnerable, but I'm clinging to the fact that children don't seem to be affected as much.

I feel lucky in certain ways: our financial situation hasn't changed, we can wfh, we got married earlier this year and the restrictions didn't affect us, we had an outdoor small wedding anyway (not in the UK, we respected the law and no one got ill, thank God!), but I am anxious. I am worried about the future. I am worried about mental health. Worried about all those people who lost jobs and their mental health is horrible.

I also feel tired (job & uni as a mature student, my second degree, harder than the first one).

Sending to everyone!

Thanks for this thread!

Yes, I feel like I should follow with the fact we are incredibly lucky that neither of our jobs or incomes will be affected. I must always keep that at the forefront of my mind and remember how lucky we are.

I am also worried about the fact that my father won't be home for Christmas, worried about the health of my parents and grandparents........ tough times, really

I can’t work out how I’m feeling and so I’m finding it really hard to deal with.

The only way I can explain it is to say that it feels like my brain has turned into denial mode and wants me to switch off to the whole thing and not think about it anymore. However this is obviously impossible as reminders of how much life is different begins almost as soon as I wake up when I head to the tumble dryer to get everybody’s masks out. I still have to do the school run but I’m finding myself really disorganised and running late because my brain just doesn’t want me to partake in the changed world outside the front door. I absolutely hate the masks, the lockdown rules, the fear people have of one another, the hate some people show to anyone with a different point of view on the situation, the things my DC are
missing out on and most of all I really miss my friends and family because we moved overseas in the summer and none of them have been able to visit because of all the quarantine rules.

I have always felt so fortunate to have been born an optimist but I am really struggling to retain my joie de vivre and can feel myself withdrawing from my DC and DH almost so I don’t subject them to my miserable new persona!