I don't know where to start, but I'm living in hell with my long term partner. On paper we look fantastic, both great careers, 2 kids (1 from his first marriage, 1 from mine) have lovely house, have great hols, the dream to anyone looking. But inside its pure hell. I hate him and am too embarrassed to leave. He is an aggressive bully, who shouts a lot at myself and daughter, he is manipulative and controlling. I know all of this, and want to leave, but don't know how. How do I cope with the shame of this this. I leave but always end up being convinced to go back through empty promises. Im scared to destroy it all and start again, but equally I know I have to find the strength to leave. Im scared of the fall out of selling the house (I put a lot into this money wise) and he will never leave. Im embarrassed as family is proud of my success, and although I know I can survive easily financially, i'm scared of the threats he makes if I do leave him. Guess im just ashamed that I am meant to be a strong independent woman, but im just worn down inside and desperate.