I am putting this here for traffic Nd I am really looking for peoples experiences and thoughts.
Have been in a new job about 6, my first for 12 years. Its been kinda ok but it feels like my brain isnt working properly. Let me e clear, this isnt NASA. Its 12 hours 4 days a week. A little library. Books in and out reservations etc. The trsi ing was pretty haphazard, but I can usually pick things up and work it out.
But I keep getting blanks. Like kicking a locked door and I stand there just squinting and clicking and hoping something happens. It's like I cant retain things.
I am on bipolar anti depressant and have been for 5 years now. Could it be jamming signals?
I cant get through to psychiatrist to ask.
My probation is up on a couple of weeks and I really feel I haven't do e that well. The employer knows about meds etc, not sure my manager does.
I thought I would be confident I k ew how it all worked at this point but I dont.
I have never felt this way before and it's really knocking my confidence. Today I wanted to cry out of frustratiin and embarrassment.