Psych Meds and work

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I am putting this here for traffic Nd I am really looking for peoples experiences and thoughts.
Have been in a new job about 6, my first for 12 years. Its been kinda ok but it feels like my brain isnt working properly. Let me e clear, this isnt NASA. Its 12 hours 4 days a week. A little library. Books in and out reservations etc. The trsi ing was pretty haphazard, but I can usually pick things up and work it out.
But I keep getting blanks. Like kicking a locked door and I stand there just squinting and clicking and hoping something happens. It's like I cant retain things.
I am on bipolar anti depressant and have been for 5 years now. Could it be jamming signals?
I cant get through to psychiatrist to ask.
My probation is up on a couple of weeks and I really feel I haven't do e that well. The employer knows about meds etc, not sure my manager does.
I thought I would be confident I k ew how it all worked at this point but I dont.
I have never felt this way before and it's really knocking my confidence. Today I wanted to cry out of frustratiin and embarrassment.

See? I put it on the board.

We're just moving this over to chat for the OP.

Thank you so much

What meds are you on OP? Some can make you a bit 'brain foggy' especially if you're a bit stressed or tired.

Lamotrigine/Lamictal. I have a cold as well. I feel stressed. Scared and stupid.

You're not stupid - you're just under the weather with your cold and being stressed. A cold makes my head really fuzzy and I can't concentrate. If I get stressed as well I sometimes feel like I'm in a sound proof box.

So I try to be kind to myself. Take cold relief / painkillers, have a hot bath when I get home, go to bed early with my favourite music and a good book to try and unwind.

You're doing brilliantly OP. Don't beat yourself up.

I've just read one of the side effects of your meds is lack of concentration. Could you speak to your GP tomorrow or maybe a pharmacist? 111 might be able to advise too.

The psychiatrist is on hols till 26th Jan. GP not sure if he would swap for something as my care is with CMHT. I dont want to say it, cos I think it sounds like I'm looking for an air tight cover story. Maybe I have no choice.