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Fuck it, just fuck it.

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crosser62 · 15/12/2019 11:15

I’ve just had enough of everything and every one.
Christmas can fuck off, the house can fuck off, work can’t fuck off and the fucking family can fuck off.

I feel like just getting in the car and driving far away and never coming back.

And people have it much much worse than me, this I know.
But just now, its got right on top of me.
I can’t see any way out of it, no break from it, no escape and no solutions.

Ok you can put that martyr label on my forehead now, you know you are going to..

OP posts:
Pipilifie · 15/12/2019 11:23

Oh I've been there many many times. Even found myself googling the term fuck off. Fantasised about telling my boss to fuck off. All I can advise as this feeling will pass. Its a tricky time of year and a shit one for many. Book some time off work for whenever you can and have some you time. It'll give you that much needed something to look forward to.

TARSCOUT · 15/12/2019 11:31

Can you go somewhere for peace, even a night away in a hotel just so you can stop the world for a few hours?

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crosser62 · 15/12/2019 11:36

Ahh thanks for replying, it’s very self indulgent and a “me,me,me” post isn’t it.
But it’s guilt guilt guilt at every turn too isn’t it.
Pfffft

OP posts:
Sallycinammonbangsthedruminthe · 15/12/2019 11:43

Hey OP! Perfectly rational way to think! So hard to advise on your situation but do you have kids? Can you farm them out to relatives for the day? Can you take a sickie from work? Can you just for once please be totally selfish and respect yourself? Sometimes we have all had enough..just reached our limits of what we can give.there is nothing wrong with this..you have permission to say fuck off the lot of you I need space and some time to my self...no one will collapse if you do! So you are there right now ..do it.Do it, be selfish and take care of you for a while.You will soon feel better if you do.If you have dependents who rely on you get them sorted and bugger off for the day.Go for a swim go for a burger .go watch a film at the cinema in peace ,,,do it,it will help you far more and my guess is that after an hour or two you will miss the hell out of the chaos and want to go home feeling much happier.calmer and better equipt to deal with it.It never hurts too for others to see just what it takes to be you and how much running around you do for them to enable life to run smoothly for them. Go take a break all will be fine! Best wishes sent

rhubarbcrumbles · 15/12/2019 11:45

What has happened to make you feel like this?

ChocoholicsAsylum · 15/12/2019 12:00

Oh god I was the same before the weekend. The kids had been so cheeky and disrespectfull that I have actually taken down the tree and decs and said everyone can fuck right off. I also said Id pack my bags next time and I meant it. Why should I burst guts working and tiring myself out paying bills and all the usual shit when nobody really takes on board what I do and is ungreatful! Nah fuck that noise. Must say they have been more behaved since saying this. Sometimes it needs to come out. Hope you start to feel better OP xx

Rosere · 15/12/2019 12:10

Hop in, I'll give you a lift @crosser62 😊
That was me all day yesterday. I contemplated getting in my car, finding a B&B and hiding. I didn't, but I certainly empathise.
Its the time of the year I think. Massive incidents of women having strokes and heart attacks at this time of year. It's easy to see why
(FYI I had no reason to be stressed, was just overwhelmed by everything and nothing) I hope you feel better. Do however get out and do something for yourself by yourself. It might help?

Gardai · 15/12/2019 12:21

YANBU I feel your pain.

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crosser62 · 15/12/2019 12:32

Rosere shall we go to an establishment that caters only chocolate and gin?

Dunno, it’s the same thing day in day out. Working 50 odd hours a week, night shifts, surviving on 2-3 hours sleep 5 days a week, picking up shit after everyone in the house, washing, cleaning, shopping and cooking for them to pull their faces at, then work I again.
The kids continuously fighting,arguing, the mess, the noise, the relentlessness of it all.

Last straw..I decorated a room, did it all so gorgeous for me to escape into to get away from everything, got a wee sky box put in, heaven...then went in this morning and it’s full of dh’s shit and a tip. Can’t even sit on the sofa because it’s full of shit and a mess.

There’s nowt in to eat, need to go shopping, got a huge family I have to buy presents for, I’ve done nothing, back at work tonight.

Have never thrown a sickie in my entire life, I’m a nurse, I know the shit this will land my colleagues in if I do.

So, fuck it all, I’m going to go to bed for at least 2 hours in a minute, tea out of whatever is in the freezer..dh will make and I shall skip out the door to work tonight and enjoy peace in the journey to work.

All will be well with the world tomorrow when everyone is on their way to work and I’m snug in bed....after the bloody school run that is !

OP posts:
AutumnRose1 · 15/12/2019 12:35

Don’t buy presents
Tell people it’s not the spirit of Christmas and it’s better for the environment

Also, sounds like your husband is a mess creator, which is not Christmas related. Bin bag time?

happypotamus · 15/12/2019 12:38

Definitely sleep before your night shift. DH can find and prepare dinner. I am also a nurse working a night shift tonight, considering if there is time for a nap today or whether I should just keep going because my DC have been taken out by a relative and there is so much to organise. I daren't even look at things like last posting dates for cards and certain retailers because I can't face knowing the deadline that might not be achieveable, but I also know that is self-sabotaging in a way. And DH is supposed to be discussing with me what we are getting DC/ his family so I can order. I don't know what he is doing right now but it isn't that. For fuck's sake. I keep thinking all of this stress to make Christmas happen and it will all be over in 11 days anyway, but my DC1 keeps saying that Christmas is better than birthdays and she was disappointed by her last birthday, so I feel I have to make it special. At least I am not working Christmas Day this year.

RJnomore1 · 15/12/2019 12:40

Why the fuck are you running around picking up after everyone else?

What’s your husband doing?

How old are you kids?

grafittiartist · 15/12/2019 12:40

Yep- the most wonderful time of the year - not!!!
Too much to do, not enough time or money.
Take care

Dowser · 15/12/2019 12:57

Every year for the last 4 years we take time out of Christmas and come somewhere hot.
Not everyone can ..but when you can
Do it
Well recommended
The only thing I miss here, I’m here right now..is mywonderful amazing family that I’m going back to next week
Everything else can fuck right off 😂
(Apart from some lovely lights and a few decorations it’s almost a Christmas free zone.
I hate the way a nice meal, a few presents etc...takes over normal life from November/ December)

Dowser · 15/12/2019 12:57

Enjoy your sleep tomorrow op

BlouseAndSkirt · 15/12/2019 12:58

I’ll join you in the Fuck It chorus, Op.

Where is that Fascinating Aida clip when we need it?

Zara9698 · 15/12/2019 12:58

Treat yourself to a lovely new lock for your woman cave room. Merry Christmas to you!

Alakazam8 · 15/12/2019 13:05

Hope this works- don’t usually post links, don’t have time!
If not you tube Thomas Benjamin.

ActualHornist · 15/12/2019 13:08

I feel ya.

Today I’m ok actually, but Friday I was on a Fuckit mission and tomorrow when I’m back at work I will be too. Partly it’s because I had an interview for a job I really wanted and not only didn’t get it, but I didn’t benchmark either (internal post) so my ego is bruised.

Also my boss is a tit which doesn’t help.

HappyHarlot · 15/12/2019 13:14

Do your food shop online. Give cash instead of presents and get binbags for your DHs stuff.

How old are your children? Can they do chores to help pick up the slack? Maybe its time for a family meeting? Tell them how you feel and then read them all the riot act.

If you need to call in sick, you need to call in sick (also a nurse so understand what you're saying), you MUST look after your own MH as well.

GrumpySausage · 15/12/2019 13:16

Shall we hire a minibus OP? I promise not to talk to you or make you do anything. Silence is fine with me.

Having a daily meltdown at the moment. Too much to do and I be bothered.

PerkingFaintly · 15/12/2019 13:16

Thank you for saying this, OP, so I don't have to.Grin

There are days I have to sit on my hands so I don't post "FUCK OFF! FUCK THE CUNTING LOT O' YA" across every thread on the board...

[Disclaimer: today is, sooooo far, a better day. I'm not fantasising about taking the staple gun to the next cunting piss-taking arsehole who fucks up my life just that little bit more... ]

Orangeblossom78 · 15/12/2019 13:19

That would be amazing to be able to go away something hot, swim in the sea and lie on the sand. Preferably some kind of retreat.

nikkylou · 15/12/2019 13:19

I'll join you.

Christmas, have no idea how it manages to, every year, simultaneously make me feel like I'm spending a fortune because I am and feel like a stingy fucker. Combined with a partner who goes from "just don't get them anything" and "you don't have to spend that" to "I thought we'd get this £50 item for my brother" not seeming to understand that a) more that I'm spending on each of my parents b) in keeping with fairness, means we really should then be spending about same on his other siblings.

ICouldBeVotingTactically · 15/12/2019 13:19

We've all been there, OP. Sometimes, I find I need to take a step back and remind myself everything doesn't have to be perfect / just so / up to my standards. An old boss told me I had to learn when 'good enough' was 'good enough'. It's been a hard lesson to learn, but a good one. And liberating!!

Most of the time, if YOU don't do something, nothing terrible will happen. So I often ask myself, if I don't do X, what's the worst that can happen?

In practical terms, it means sorting out the 'must do's from the 'nice to do's. For the must do's, find a way to spread the load. What needs done now /today? What can wait until later in the week? Who else can do it, or part of it? (eg, your DH out the stuff in the nice room, so he can remove it).

Reduce the presents.

Just order e-vouchers.
Or order everybody the same thing, off Amazon. When the parcels arrive, press-gang the children into a wrapping production line, with cheesy Christmas music (or film) on and a treat for them at the end.

Share your to do list with your DH and children (if old enough) and tell them you can't do all of it, and ask them to volunteer for several each (they might also persuade you that some can be safely ignored!).

You DO need time to yourself. Nobody else will make it for you.