What's your life like?

[QueenOfIce]

I'm nosy interested. I see people from all walks of life all over the world and as I see them doing whatever they're doing I wonder what their life is like. Are they happy, do they enjoy their job etc..

What's your life like?

Up until 2013 it was fairly shit. Since then I’ve never been happier. Mortgage is tiny now. House is as I want it. Dd is great my marriage is brilliant. Money is plentiful and work is going well. I came from shite beginning in a shite flat ( mum preferred booze ) in a shite town, went to shite schools and had a shite outlook. I’ve worked so fucking hard ( sometimes for very little reward ) and now I’m where I want to be. We’re active, fit and healthy and I count my blessings every day because I’ve lived the alternative. I’m happy 🥺 and it chokes me up because I never thought it possible.

Should be incredibly happy. From the outside looking in, really good life. Good job, lovely DH I adore and who adores me, nice house, no debt, no money worries.

I worry constantly about adult DD. Alcoholic, abusive relationship, no matter what happens gets right back into it despite any help given. Blames me for everything, so terrible relationship there. It is heart breaking. She was the brightest, sweetest little girl. I can't see a way forward for her.

I live too far away from my family. I miss them, and all the family 'stuff' every day.

DM died this year; I'd spent several years worrying about that, and then it happened. Can't quite believe that.

Best friend died, and I find I have a big deep hole there. No really close girlfriends, when you get right down to it.

Shit. I am so very lucky - I need to pull my big girl pants up and stop wallowing.

It's ok. Work can dominate so I wake up at 4am worrying about it. I wonder what it's like not to have that stress. Money was always a struggle but now working my way rapidly thro money left to me after DF died. It's so weird to be able to buy things. Eldest DS leaving home for uni so that's a mindfuck too. DP alternate being irritated/ depending on him.

I guess some people might envy me. 3 amazing kids all doing well. Big house, good marriage, successful husband. We don't have to worry financially and have no health worries.

But I have crippling anxiety/depression stemming from a bit of a dysfunctional upbringing, and my siblings have their own issues with drug and alcohol abuse (though all is ok just now touch wood). I am scared to cut down as I become a weeping mess as soon as i do.

My mother is difficult and I tend to get the brunt of any angst...she is a carer for her brother (who has mental health issues) and my dad has some health issues as well. My mum does have a lot to deal with but she can be so hurtful sometimes. So I don't really have much in the way of emotional support especially as my husband works so much.

My MIL seems to despise me...unsure why, other than I've married her golden boy and taken his attention elsewhere. Tbh she seems to be a classic narcissist...I've tried and used to get upset at her treatment but frankly it's not my problem..

I have some truly wonderful friends who are more family than my own family. I've been to CBT which has helped and I try to keep a mindfulness journal.

Having turned 40 last year, I need some direction and a new challenge now I don't have babies. I just haven't worked in ages so feel a bit aimless. I do volunteer work with young offenders twice a week which I really get a lot from.

And I have a beautiful dog! All in, am doing ok.