Need to pull myself together for the children

[Simonfromharlow]

My husband left me 10 days ago. I feel so down. I'm being a shit mum to my kids as I can't pull myself together. This is so hard. I don't know how to cope.

What a great idea and also you don't want to burden your friends and family all the time. I am sure they don't mind but there will be surely some that don't want to hear it all the time. They want 'you' - the person before the split back! Then at least when the children go away for the weekend there is the potential for some fun times
Go girl!

Exactly! That's what I thought!

I've been loving my puzzle books tonight!! Haha

Good old puzzle books - great mind diverter! Tomorrow is another day - enjoy your children and get that theory test booked ❤️

Ahhhh both kids in bed! Enjoying of it of time to myself! They've been struggling to sleep lately! I've had one or both of them in bed with me most nights !

Can't sleep 😭

I'm so tired the kids aren't sleeping well and in turn I'm not sleeping well! It's making me feel so rubbish and emotional.

But that's normal life with a 2 and 7 year old! Don't be stressing yourself - as said before just make sure they are fed with lots of cuddles - give yourself a breather - you are doing great ❤️

Go for some walks, to a playground - fresh air does wonders to knacker them out.

I feel like I've gone right back to the start.

Yes I will take them out to the park today I think.

I can't say if it will be tomorrow or the next day or even next week but you will feel better. You are not back at the start - you already have found a job, taking driving lessons and maintained your dignity.
You are doing brilliantly!

Thanks @Paddy1234 you have been amazing on here! Wish I could give you a big hug! Haha

Ah bless - it's lovely to talk to you through the ups and downs ❤️❤️❤️

You are really helping me. Also others who have commented.

I think the lows feel worse because you are making progress, weirdly. It’s like the contrast or something. But I think they do get less and less frequent and eventually just disappear. Keep on keeping on, Simon, I think you’re a legend!

@EffYouSeeKaye thank you!! I'm hoping you're right!! I'm
So bored of all this now!!

You have come a long way in a short time. Well done

Thank you! Doesn't feel like it but I'm sure I will look back in time and see it that way!

Ugh the bloody dreams are messing with my head. To realistic.

Aren't dreams your minds way of processing things that are happening to you?! Sure I read that somewhere!

I'm so tired 😭😭

I had the best sleep last night! Slept like a log!

Also ex face timed the kids this morning and the youngest wouldn't talk to him. Instead clung on to me like a limpet. Ex was upset, I have no sympathy for him. Reap what you sew!

He just gave timed again. Told them he was going to take them crazy golf and he went with his 'new friend' obvs a date. Not sure why he needed to tell them about the friend part.

🙄 Make sure he also takes them to the dentist / for haircuts / clothes shopping as well. The Disney Dad thing pisses me off.

I've already told him he needs to buy them clothes, at the very least to have at his place as things keep being forgotten 🙄

I just had to come upstairs and hide. The kids are playing the sims and making out family. Me, them..... and daddy. I feel so so sad for them and for myself. I really really miss him today. Come out of no where.