Have you ever reached a burn out in your job?

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Exactly that?

I think I have, i'm ready to crack.

In a nut shell - I work in a high demand job, little pay and I often have to cover for other people (whom earn more money than me), its also customer service based and the demands are just sole destroying.

Its getting so bad that when an inbound call comes through I feel like i cant even speak, we have meetings today for the 2019 horizon and I can even bring myself to go. I just have no interest. My heart pounds when I have cover the front desk as nearly every customer we get is a complaint or speaks to me like utter shit.

I feel like crying before going to work and on a Sunday I'm a mess. I have never had this before in a job. has anyone else? I feel like I have just hit a wall with the job and.

What’s the solution? I’m currently off sick following a overdose. NHS

Bottomplasters

Oh Bottomplasters, I'm so sorry. That's dreadful. NHS here too. I spoke to my manager in my supervisions about how much I hated my role, and she was sympathetic. It took time, but she was able to recommend various training courses to me which developed my skills, and which ultimately led to a new role for me which I'm starting next year

I realise this is totally dependent on having a manager who is capable of empathy, but I think trying to reach out and tell people that you are interested in a different role is the first step. I hope that life gets much better for you very soon x

It gets worse and I’m struggling to know where to turn. I’ve totally ballsed up and so full of remorse and guilt.

I took overdose in the morning and went to work in the evening. Medication I took didn’t effect me until that night and I collapsed at work.

I had driven to work and an ambulance was called and I was taken to hospital. When ambulance was called they were very concerned that I had driven to work, I was alert and worried that they were going to report me to the police.

I then disposed of medication from my bag into sanitary bin, these were found by staff.

I am now suspended and being investigated for “being unfit to work” my mood has lifted slightly, no suicidal ideation but thoughts of driving into a bus remain,

I’m scared and anxious about work, know I’m going to get sacked.

Midwife by the way

Disposed of medication as thought ambulance was going to call police as I drove

The NHS treat their staff like shit

Best decision I ever made was leaving a job which left me feeling crushed, unappreciated and useless. I’m now doing a job I enjoy for much less pay but I’m much happier and more relaxed. I can’t believe I let a job take such a toll on me for so long. I wish I had left years before.

I'm a NHS nurse. I've had a breakdown and I'm on sick leave. My job has destroyed me. I can't go back - ever - I believe it really would be the end of me. It's a shame because I'm still fairly young and was good at my job, and I was dedicated to it.

OP your exact situation happened to me in 2016. I was working long and unsociable hours, in a customer facing environment for little pay and high expectations and I was regularly verbally abused by customers. It made me terribly anxious and depressed. I decided to move jobs, to one that should have been a step up into first level of management and better working hours and money.

It also ended up extremely stressful within the first week. I resigned and have never looked back. I now work two days a week in back office role with very little pressure and very sociable hours. I am much happier.

I am very lucky to have a supportive husband who supports me and earns enough for us to continue to pay all our bills without me slogging my guts out for no return.

DontLetMe - I hope you are recovering and hope you manage to leave for good.

I echo people saying that they are not valued. NHS middle managers are a joke. I do the work of two people on 20 hours a week. I have no equipment budget, no training budget, nowhere to keep anything and nowhere to sit. I do really specialist work and I give recommendations that could be valuable, but nobody takes them on board.

When things go wrong, they ask for my help. The pattern is to request advice, ignore it, then request it again. Emails are ignored. Meetings cancelled and not rescheduled.

People make dangerous decisions. They don’t documented properly. There is a culture of bullying. Staff constantly bitch about each other. Bullies aren’t managed out. People who fail at their jobs are moved sideways. It’s truly toxic. Been in the nhs 20 years, never seen it so bad.

I will be resigning in the new year, taking with me a lot of skill in an area where there is an acute shortage of this skill. I could have been persuaded to remain with just a few simple measures. They are too stupid to see this.

&Miljah
Been through that process, twice now. This last time has finished me off which is why I'm planning my escape; pretty much any job is more appealing that my NHS post right now and I trained for a very long time to do what I do.
Most folk I know are anxious, stressed, afraid of not hitting targets tired and snappy.
I can't wait for 2019 because I'll be counting the days til I can get out, and saving as hard as I can to cushion myself whilst I take a rest and regain my strength before I start work again, but in the private sector.
I'm going to be my own boss and fuck all the bureaucracy and target setting.

Hi - I'm currently starting out on my studies to be a counselling psychologist and thought the NHS would be my first choice. (Have also posted on this thread about my awful current job in different field which is finishing me off for all things finance-related! )
I'm seeing so many desperately unhappy NHS staff posting I'm starting to get really really worried!! I am passionate about my career change but can't help worry if things are bad working for the NHS as I thought this would be my first choice. Don't want to exchange one nightmare for another

Yes, as a teacher I totally have. It was partly to do with management and their attitude and work load so a combination of both. I was off with stress twice. The best thing I ever did was change schools. It made a huge difference. Workload is bad still but with a better team, it is less stressful. I really thought it was it for me in teaching. It was really more to do with the place I was working.

I burned out of care work. I did a few years in a nursing home (luxury home with horridly demanding residents and even more horribly demanding families). It was the other staff that did me in though, and I went onto domicilliary care. That was even worse, I put 24k on my car in a year covering a small area, was out from 7am to 11pm at night and leaving very vulnerable and weak people at home when they weren't safe to be there. Constantly harassed by phone to cover for others. Never getting a day off. I used to wake up with crushing chest pains from anxiety and knew I had to stop.

Now working with DH which he'd been nagging me to do for years. Set my own hours, take the dogs with me. I absolutely love it and touch wood we've never fallen out.

Yes it's awful looking for a new job but not currently getting anywhere.