Have you ever reached a burn out in your job?

[Merrychristmasyoufilthyanimals]

Exactly that?

I think I have, i'm ready to crack.

In a nut shell - I work in a high demand job, little pay and I often have to cover for other people (whom earn more money than me), its also customer service based and the demands are just sole destroying.

Its getting so bad that when an inbound call comes through I feel like i cant even speak, we have meetings today for the 2019 horizon and I can even bring myself to go. I just have no interest. My heart pounds when I have cover the front desk as nearly every customer we get is a complaint or speaks to me like utter shit.

I feel like crying before going to work and on a Sunday I'm a mess. I have never had this before in a job. has anyone else? I feel like I have just hit a wall with the job and.

Yes. I’m a nurse. It made me ill to the point of panic attacks. I’ve reduced my hours massively and moved out of the Acute sector. Thankfully, our finances permit that and DH is very supportive. However, it isn’t a perfect solution and i’m weighing up where my career future lies but I’m much better than I was.

thanks so much for all your input. its been like therapy and made me feel a bit more human and not a weirdo/mardarse!

You're not a weirdo at all. I think it's normal to be a bit fed up in your job from time to time and for some days to be a lot better than others. What we have all described here is definitely not 'normal' and definitely not something anyone should have to just put up with

Me. It's a relentless onslaught of misery, high pressure and we're utterly unappreciated. Most of us have had some time off with stress related illnesses this year. The solution? Threaten us with dismissal if attendance doesn't improve.

'Threaten us with dismissal if attendance doesn't improve.'

Oh well that's just lovely fucking idiots

But that’s exactly what happened to me. I had a period of longer term sickness (broke both my arms), then picked up every big going when I got back. The final episode I was projectile vomiting at work and was sent home. But it triggered the third formal meeting. Then they sacked me after 21 years.
Coincidentally they had been culling middle management for years and it fitted nicely into the cost improvement plan for that year.

Bug not big

@Zofloramummy bloody hell!

At the moment im nothing more than a scapegoat for if the CQC rock up.

Hell yes, after 25 years of nursing I just snapped one day, walked out and never went back.
I went back to uni and retrained as a podiatrist, I now work in a lovely private clinic earning 2-3 times as much as I did as a nurse 9-5 with weekends off and no nights.
I did NHS podiatry for a while but it was same shit different day.

@Merrychristmasyoufilthyanimals it's a shame that we are made to feel like that! Especially on the shit wages we was on. I work on minimum wage doing cleaning but I'm absolutely fine with that! I'm not academic at all so there's no way would I be able to progress my career or try and be something or somebody so I've accepted it! My job is far less stressful. I do it by myself, peacefully and quietly then go home and leave work at work! thats the beauty of it. X

Oh yes, repeatedly

IfOnlyOurEyesSawSouls I'm still in the NHS but work for the Blood Donation service as a team leader. Its very different and all the HR side is new to me but I like my team, my boss is great and so is my mentor.

Lots of training and support. Totally different vibe than A and E. No violence, no upper management being arseholes in difficult circumstances. I'm lucky that I managed to get a mortgage that paid off some debts and so the pay cut hit hasn't been as bad as I thought.

madcatladyforever I'd love to do Podiatry. I just can't afford to retrain in anything else.

Don't go into social care if you want a stressless job.

Shocking pay, shocking conditions and shocking management!

I cried three times at work today, frustration & stress rather than upset. Which is absolutely ridiculous, I mean who the hell does that - but I genuinely think they have broken me. No one listens, then if someone else says the same thing I did - it's all gushing isn't that marvellous. I slog over solutions, for them to be torn apart - only for my solution to be used in the end.. but with someone else's name on it. There is zero respect for my expertise & skills. Why am I even there. I really am done, CV will have to be done over Christmas. New Year job hunt here I come.

screamingTuesday I dont finish for christmas until next friday and i know its only 5working days left i feel physically ill knowing its over 50hers of shit to take on.
one of my colleagues is an utter selfish bitch, My fellow colleague lost her aunty this week due to cancer and left early to go home and bitch face huffed and puffed because it was an inconvienence to her that she went home early. utter cow.

@Merrychristmasyoufilthyanimals that is truly shit ..... we all so need to get new jobs. Passing the wine round 🍷🍷🍷🍷🍷🍷 for surviving another week.

NHS
Hate my job but love the people I'm here to care for.

The culture amongst staff where I work is a negative one. Very hard to be apart of it.
I started a project that came to fruition a month ago. Worked very hard on this. I want to stay for another 6 months to see this project running smoothly.....then I'm off.

I burn out repeatedly because we're so short staffed and the culture

Education. I've been signed off by my GP for two weeks after 25 years in my profession.

I was battling on with crippling anxiety when my body just decided to take over. I started getting severe pains in my chest so saw my GP.
My BP and heart rate were very high and he told me I needed to take a break to stop something 'big' from happening.

I'll have to return after Christmas and face the same issues of volume vs hours and understaffing. Nobody can pick up my work either, so it'll still be waiting.

I'm like a different person already after time away and know that I need to find something else asap.

Oh god, this is all truly terrifying how ill our jobs make us xx

To think I'm sat here worrying about next week's deadlines at work! Feel like I have had a moment of clarity and decided to simply not care anymore. The worst thing that can happen is I get sacked - am not going to screw myself up any more with what-ifs.

Nhs for 12 years. I tremble when I think or see an ambulance. Tried care work. Nice ish clients, stupid hours. First week 1 visit. Had to leave as some of the blokes we went to I had a bad feeling about, I had to be DBS checked but why not them? Sometimes got 3 hours a day if lucky and that was the best firm to work for. Tried support, please becareful. All had behavioural problems, thought nothing about bollocking you for what's happened in their life. Bit soul destroying. I'd rather work in a factory from now on making doughnuts or something

Just had 6 months off from last job. Had enough

Yes but I couldn’t see it at the time and looking back I was close to a break down. I was rattling and on the verge of tears ALL the time.

I forgot my husbands birthday, I used to stand at the bar on a night out at the weekend and worry about what I’d face on Monday morning, my husband also had to cancel a surprise weekend he’d booked because I’d agreed to extra shifts (think he was planning to propose) and the worst bit thinking back was that I’d sit on the bus going in and fantasise about being in a crash so I didn’t have to go in!

It was horrific but it taught me about boundaries, they very quickly replaced their “indispensable star performer” when I left and none of them kept in touch.

Not me , but I’ve seen many many of my colleagues , and friends of colleagues , fall victim to burn out . All police officers. I’ve been carted to A and E from work on a blue light run because they thought I was having a heart attack . Three colleagues from my station have had actual heart attacks at work , all believed to be stress or shift work related . I have one colleague being investigated for a mystery illness that caused him to collapse on a flight . Many many more colleagues off sick through mental health problems . At least two I know of who just thought “ Fuck this “ and disappeared for days . One this very week who was found dead .

I’ve got two years to go , and I’m just hanging on grimly , until the point when I can run away .

Plenty of times. Assuming I live until today's retirement age, I'm not even halfway through my working life. Had a bad breakdown a few years back whilst working in telesales where I just couldn't do anything for around 6 months. Generally I hate working in customer service, so trying to think of an out. I have a good work ethic and am fairly intelligent, but can't stand being micro managed or having to supervise others. At the moment I'm supervising within my partner's business but loathe it. We have one member of staff in particular who just won't focus on the job, so I spend most of my time having to check what he's doing, then rush through my work in order to keep things ticking over. I've not had more than 4 hours of sleep a night in over a year now, not sure how much longer I can function like this.