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Threw it all away

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LastSatsuma · 14/07/2026 21:04

Has anyone ever been this stupid?
Or know what I should do?

I was hearing such awful voices this morning, they told me that my medication was poisoning me, a conspiracy to make me quiet and not speak out about bad things that have happened to me. So I threw it all away. In the bin on the street.

Now I'm not sure if I should tell anyone, I don't know if I will be in trouble. I'm confused about if I should have it or not, whether I really am being poisoned. There's lots of different tablets I normally have, if I asked the doctor for new ones I would be too embarrassed and it is bad that I am wasting their money. The voices now say I am going to be making everyone cross and think I am very bad, so I mustn't tell anyone. I'm asking here because I haven't got to speak out loud so they can't stop me.

I apologise if no one knows or has done this. It's not normal I know.

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Willweeverfindout · 15/07/2026 01:04

It’s fine! It happens. Just call your dr or the crisis team and let them know. It happens all the time. Xx

PatchworkCow · 15/07/2026 01:09

I already have pain inside my chest and tummy so that's probably because I did talk about the bad things happening.

It's not that. It's because you usually take omeprazole which is a proton pump inhibitor, to reduce stomach acid. You've got heartburn. Feeling stressed out won't be helping the condition. I believe you may be able to purchase it over the counter at a pharmacy. So that's one thing you could easily sort tomorrow yourself.

Not the same situation, but I once accidentally threw away steroid tablets which I'd been prescribed for an allergic reaction. I'd been cleaning up and decluttering the day before. I couldn't find them anywhere, turned the whole house upside down looking for them in the morning. Couldn't check the bin because it was bin day and had been emptied, but I figured that's where they must have gone by mistake, since they were nowhere else. So I had to get an emergency appointment with the GP that day. I didn't get in trouble and steroids are something some people abuse, so wanting a duplicate prescription did raise an eyebrow but the GP just told me to be more careful and wrote me a new prescription. I don't think any of your meds are anything people abuse, so there's even less chance of anyone thinking you're looking for extras.

You should tell the GP first thing in the morning. And tell them the truth that you threw them away because of voices, that part is important information for them to be able to help you. You don't need to remember the dose, it'll be in your records so the GP will know. The psychologist on Monday can't prescribe, only psychiatrist or GP can, so no point you waiting to speak to him.

Bigbus · 15/07/2026 01:10

Please don’t think anyone will be angry with you. I’m a mental health professional and we would much rather give you more medication than risk a full
blown crisis. Please contact 111/your team/your GP
tomorrow. Dont just tell them you threw your meds away, also tell them about the voices and how you are feeling. If you feel unsafe and can’t get hold
of anyone, go to A&E - don’t worry about admission, it’s always a last resort if it’s the only way to keep people safe and there are lots pf options for help in the community, like home treatment and crisis teams. Best wishes OP, I hope you get better soon. Remember you deserve as much care as anyone else. Treat yourself as kindly as you would someone else who is struggling.

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LilyMumsnet · 15/07/2026 10:51

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LastSatsuma · 15/07/2026 21:19

Little update- I followed the suggestions several of you made, and wrote some of what I put on here to the GP. I did their form at 8am when they first become available. I asked to only talk to a female doctor, and did write why I didn't have my medications. A really kind doctor rang me back at about 9.30 this morning and, just like you said, wasn't angry at me or judgemental. I was honest to her. She did me a whole new prescription for all the medicines and I was able to get it at lunchtime. She helped me and then my care coordinator from the CMHT rang me in the afternoon as well.

So I now have plenty of medication again, apart from one that the pharmacy has to order, but it should be there by tomorrow. Everyone has been kind to me, even though I don't feel they should. I was quite scared at the pharmacy as the voices were very loud, cruel and pressuring.

I got less than an hour of sleep last night so I'm very very tired and have a headache. We had super easy supper of boiled eggs. Yogurt and watermelon for pudding. Hopefully I can go to bed soon, when my boy is settled.

To the Mumsnet person, I know I mustn't rely on help from other users and I have to get support in real life. It isn't always easy to ask for it when you aren't well. I hope I didn't offend anyone or be a bother.

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idkbroidk · 15/07/2026 21:46

LastSatsuma · 15/07/2026 21:19

Little update- I followed the suggestions several of you made, and wrote some of what I put on here to the GP. I did their form at 8am when they first become available. I asked to only talk to a female doctor, and did write why I didn't have my medications. A really kind doctor rang me back at about 9.30 this morning and, just like you said, wasn't angry at me or judgemental. I was honest to her. She did me a whole new prescription for all the medicines and I was able to get it at lunchtime. She helped me and then my care coordinator from the CMHT rang me in the afternoon as well.

So I now have plenty of medication again, apart from one that the pharmacy has to order, but it should be there by tomorrow. Everyone has been kind to me, even though I don't feel they should. I was quite scared at the pharmacy as the voices were very loud, cruel and pressuring.

I got less than an hour of sleep last night so I'm very very tired and have a headache. We had super easy supper of boiled eggs. Yogurt and watermelon for pudding. Hopefully I can go to bed soon, when my boy is settled.

To the Mumsnet person, I know I mustn't rely on help from other users and I have to get support in real life. It isn't always easy to ask for it when you aren't well. I hope I didn't offend anyone or be a bother.

so proud of you!!! very glad you were able to get all your medications again and that everyone was so kind and helpful :) never be afraid to ask for help ever!

parietal · 15/07/2026 22:28

Well done. I’m so glad we were able to help. Do enjoy your simple supper and get some sleep.

shellyleppard · 15/07/2026 22:30

@LastSatsuma so glad you got your medication sorted. Well done lovely, it must have been so hard for you.
Sending the biggest of hugs 🤗 💐🙏💜

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LastSatsuma · 15/07/2026 23:27

Thank you again to the people writing nice things to me. I am not used to anyone saying things like that, so it feels a bit weird. I have been sat in my garden in the dark for about an hour. It's finally quite a comfortable temperature. I have been struggling with the heat a lot. It makes me feel sick, tired and have headaches. The cool garden felt peaceful and calm.

I forgot but tomorrow I have to go to the hospital. It's for blood tests and an ECG. Apparently the psychiatrist asked for it because I have high prolactin in my blood. I'm not sure what will happen.

My child is almost settled down, so I can get to bed soon. Desperate for sleep.

I hope you all have good sleeps and a good day tomorrow.

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Tummygrumbling · 15/07/2026 23:50

Thanks for the update OP. You have done so well to sort everything out today. Hope you can get some rest now xx

BusterGonad · 16/07/2026 09:10

I'm so pleased Op. You did a, brave thing and were looked after. I hope you are asleep and resting well

PissedOffAutistic · 16/07/2026 13:25

Well done OP, you did great! You sound like such a lovely and brave person! I hope you can get some good sleep soon.

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