Went last week to EPU after bleeding not loads but more than I was comfortable with. Was scanned - supposed to be 11wks but measured small (6wks) too small for them to tell if it was ok or not. Both external & internal scan done but not clear enough for them to say either way.
I have to go for another scan next Friday but it doesn't look good. DH is a dr (not obstetrics) and he said the scan wasn't good.
Everybody who knows tells me to keep busy but I can't. I feel in such a limbo. I work from home and I just can't concentrate. I just sat in front of the computer in a daze for 30mins.
It doesn't help that I still have MS, and it being a 2nd pregnancy I already have a small bump.
I just want to curl up in bed and go to sleep until next Friday
I just don't know how to keep going, taking DS to and from school & chatting about lego/maths/etc is the only thing keeping me upright, the rest of the time I just don't want to think or feel.
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Waiting is so awful - I feel so lost
wonkylegs · 14/11/2014 14:07
Oh sweet, I can't not answer. I wish so much there was something to say that would help. I've been in your shoes three times and so I know how hard it is, the terrible pause whilst the world spins gaily on and you wait and wait for a scan. It's just too cruel.
Keep yourself hugged. Take time off, have a bath, think your thoughts. Watch dumb TV, go for walks... do what ever you need to do. This is hard, don't make it any harder by trying to do anything much. This is about you staying together until you know what will happen to you and your pregnancy.
Sending you much strength to get through the next week. 
The waiting and the limbo is by far the suckiest part of this. I found having fairly mindless things to do helped. Spent a fortune on candy sugar crush. Also discovered mumsnet classics threads, great for whiling away a few hours. Watched a lot of box sets (also known as illegally downloading anything I could get my hands on). Mild exercise did help but I found it really hard to motivate myself. I did turn to the 
during the waiting for one mc, but I don't recommend overindulging, just made everything ten times worse the next day. Also plan something nice for the future, a nice meal out or a holiday perhaps, remind yourself there is life beyond this.
This time feels like dead time, and I don't think anything will change that, all you can do is be kind to yourself and let others be kind to you.
Sending you both hugs amd strength. Xx
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