If I leave this job I will have literally burned down my life won't I?

[LaurieFairyCake]

I'm in a job that comes with compulsory funded government training at a university for one year.

I'm 2 months in and I'm fine with the course but the job part where I actually work I HATE it.

I basically work for someone who doesn't trust me at all - questions my decision making, questions my time (I work really hard and think about work all the time)

I don't think I can leave as it leaves them completely up shit creek as part of the course is supervising trainees who are at the same uni. I also don't think I'd get another job in this sector as all of my bosses know all the other bosses in this sector.

But I'm massively struggling to stay in post, 10 months to go

I just cannot cope with not being trusted.

The worst part of this is that my boss and I used to be very close friends - we've literally been friends for 20 years. I've only been in the job 9 months, she asked me to come and work there. Our relationship has completely deteriorated.

I was upset about this before Christmas and would have chosen the friendship over the job (and not started this training course) but now I'm actually furious at not being trusted after all our years together. I would now leave the job AND the friendship

Has anyone got any advice?

I hesitate to say this as I don't want to upset you but is there any chance she has a point?

The things you disagree about- are you able to understand where she is coming from? Is there anything you could consider doing differently?

Totally fine to ask that

I don't think so (always possible some of it's me) 2 people have asked in a very roundabout way if I was thinking about complaining about the way she has spoken to me