Wracked with guilt/sadness

[LieselVentouse]

.. and theres bugger all i can do about it. Decided i would go back next week for two weeks to break myself in gently as i will then be off for two weeks over xmas. But i cant even think about leaving her

can you change your mind? how old is your lo?

no. shes 4 months old. i know i'll be fine when i get back but im just wishing for a lottery win

she will be fine but even if you know she's is in really good hands, of course it's painful to be separated from her. The only comfort you have really is that the experience will be far worse for you than for your DD.

I've started buying lottery tickets too

thank you

No advice but I feel exactly the same. I have to go back or I owe work all of my OMP back. I feel desperate every time I think of leaving my dd. You have my sympathies.