Hate coming on here to moan but I will anyway...
I really want to go back to work p/t because I enjoy working (as much as you can enjoy it!!), I want a reason to get out of the house more, I would be financially much better off and could afford to move out of my parents.
BUT all the childcare stuff is basically doing my head in!! I get nervous whenever I leave dd, like to go shopping for an hour, and really miss her. I think if I left her with someone I knew I could trust, that I could get over that though. But deciding on childcare is a nightmare at the moment, and I have even started looking for a specific place yet so that might be another huge hassle.
I've more or less decided that I don't want my parents to register as childminders and look after dd, for many reasons. But they've basically set their hearts on it and I don't know when or how to tell them that its not what I want. And then I'm left with choosing between a childminder or a nursery. Most of the childminders round here don't get much praise so it seems a better option to go for a nursery. But the mothering paranoia has truly settled now and it keeps going round in my mind that no-one will give her the care and attention I do and that it won't be good enough.
It doesn't really seem worth going to work sometimes if there's going to be this many problems - any advice?