I have a history of working in academic related jobs; since having children I have worked mainly at home and part-time.
I started back full-time at work in November in a teaching-related role. It's essentially providing support for children with special needs.
On the surface it was supposed to be academic support but increasingly, the students have mental health needs that I just can't deal with (either practically or emotionally).
I'm not really trained to do this and I feel more and more stressed. I have had a history of fairly mild mental health issues but these are now being exacerbated: I find myself crying all the time, panic attacks on the bust and so on. Just not coping well. :(
I also have to rush back for the childminder, work very early (4am wake-up) and often stay late. Stuff at home just isn't being done. My days are involved with seeing fairly difficult kids, one after the other, with very little respite (I have an enormous case-load).
Financially it would make life difficult if I gave up but not impossible. I like my colleagues and I like the children; I find aspects of it very fulfilling but boy, it is just so hard.
Not sure what I should do- anxiety is clouding my though processes. Not sure if it's me that's the problem or the job....? Argh! (Don't know what to do next, either, but that's another thread....)
Any advice appreciated! I have a meeting with my line manager but I think the nature of the job means it's not that changeable (I have been told already that I can't go part-time).