Since Dec12 I have been diagnosed with depression and was prescribed ADs.
From around Jan13 til about Apr13 I made some very stupid mistakes, I checked the side effects on my ADs and saw that lack of concentration was one of them. I saw my GP and asked to swap my medication which she did. My manager knows everything that has been happening and originally was very supportive.
I was given a notice of improvement back in Apr13 which expired in Oct13, at the review meeting my boss said that he was very pleased with my improvement and that I wasn't making any mistakes that the rest of the team weren't.
It is the team leader who does the appraisals and not the manager and this happened Jan14 to cover the year of 2013. My team leader does not know the ins an outs of my situation but my manager said that he would have a word with him and explain the bare minimum. However, once in my appraisal the team leader called me an absolute disgrace which reduced me to tears. And nothing constructive at all was said, yet 10 out of 16 commendations out of a team of 9 were mine from clients.
I mentioned to the manager that I was unhappy with how my appraisal was conducted, he said that the team leader had already mentioned to him that he felt he had been out of order. My manager suggested 3 options a) that I forget about it all b) that I ask to speak to the team leader and c) that myself, the team leader and the manager get together BUT the meetings must be off the record. I said that I didn't want to have a meeting as I felt that it should all be on the record as my mistakes are on the record. I would have been happy to have received an apology from the team leader but this has been unforthcoming.
Unfortunately, I made a mistake last week, the manager me into an informal chat and said "this is it now, one more mistake and you are out, I can do nothing more to help you" I have asked in the past for someone to check my bookings but the manager has said no, yet mistakes were also made last week by other team members, including the manager which were of a worse nature than mine, cost more money and manpower to sort.
All I have received is a notice of improvement which expired last Oct, I have received no official written warning, no final written warning.
I am now of course even more stressed especially as my daughter has been fainting and I am waiting for blood tests and an ECG to be done, plus a family member has to go for tests soon. This has made my work situation unbearable and I don't know which way to turn, any advice anyone on where I stand ??