I'm sure we all have our own takes on this, that's why we collect here to share this angst.
I recall when trans ideology first came across my radar 12 years ago, I was seriously triggered by the phenomenon in and of itself, men in women's sport, then prisons etc.
Then the awareness of a whole ecosystem of trans allies, at best obsequious, at worst downright violent and dangerous.
Then the Qs as to how scientists etc could accept this.
Then the attacks on free speech, the cancelations, the attacks on JKR, Glinner etc.
Then the "iconic" individuals, from Lia Thomas to Adam Bryson and Barbie Kardashian in Scottish and Irish women's jails, Imane Khelif at the Olympics, the males in female nurses changing rooms that went to court.
Then seeming cracks in the facade, the takedowns on Tavistock, Cass Report, and what should have been the final bulldozer moment, the SC For Women Scotland ruling.
I've spent the last year somewhat coming up for air, with a tenuous confidence the SC ruling would right this ship, or at least be the cover for a moral imperative to regain reality and truth and honesty.
But this isn't happening. Sure, the guardrails look more fit for purpose (the law is the law), but I know two women close to me who are harassed daily by TIMs who revel in their power to use their toilets and verbally insult them mercilessly, both changed by their experiences.
And I'm more and more reading RóisÃn Michaux's experience in Brussels as to how entrenched the rot is, how despite massive setbacks (Finnish clinical reveals on the failure en masse of medicalization to help those young dysmorphics), the claws and tendrils of trans ideology and it's useful idiot helpers are more and more turning institutions their way, the EU as a whole is now lost, as is Amnesty, the UN, WHO etc.
So few reasons to feel good about being British right now, but TERF Island in a West of trans ideology captured nations and institutions, is the only positive right now.
Atm I feel like I'm being drawn back into all the bad feelings I thought I could let go a year ago, but now the stage on the "loneliness of the long distance gender critical" for me personally is an almost existentially depressing one, a feeling I can't shift, that our high trust model of society replicated across the West has been irrevocably corrupted, not by the sorts of nefarious agents that you'd initially thought would look to injure us (Putin, Xi etc), but our very own most intelligent classes, the gatekeepers to intellectual policy making, our scientists, administrators, philosophers, politicians, charities, doctors.
For me, this may be a final frontier in my personal lonely long distance race, the fact that the people we all relied on to run society for the good of us all, have succumbed to rot and anti liberalism, I'm left with feelings the world has changed for the worse, the people I'd least expect to do this are totally to blame.